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Bulldogbitch
Lifes a bitch, so am I
- Feb 12, 2020
- 85
It seems I struggle to get up everyday. My whole body hurts and when I finally get up, take my beautiful dogs into the garden I'm thinking I can't do this any more.
I'm so tired, so depressed, exhausted and I guess suicidal.
Last night I sat and cried and I'm not a crier really. My youngest dog came over, I lifted her onto the sofa and she sat on my lap, sniffing and licking my face (which I don't like haha) until I calmed down. Then she sat next to me leaning against my side with her paw on my shoulder.
I'm scared of death, I guess from a young age I have been but I can't bare how I feel. I don't want to live like this anymore but I can't see another way.
I have left a message with my mental health team, who are usually useless. They'll probably call tomorrow .
I think I've posted before about how rubbish they are. That's why I barely ring them and I know they won't make contact with me.
You guys were the only support I thought I could get today.
Hope you're all OK
I'm so tired, so depressed, exhausted and I guess suicidal.
Last night I sat and cried and I'm not a crier really. My youngest dog came over, I lifted her onto the sofa and she sat on my lap, sniffing and licking my face (which I don't like haha) until I calmed down. Then she sat next to me leaning against my side with her paw on my shoulder.
I'm scared of death, I guess from a young age I have been but I can't bare how I feel. I don't want to live like this anymore but I can't see another way.
I have left a message with my mental health team, who are usually useless. They'll probably call tomorrow .
I think I've posted before about how rubbish they are. That's why I barely ring them and I know they won't make contact with me.
You guys were the only support I thought I could get today.
Hope you're all OK