
jacrispy
nihilist
- Jun 19, 2023
- 212
I'm ready to go, truly. hate that I failed so many times to take my life. it's exhausting. my friends and family are worried about me but only check in every few days, if that. I'm just in my room waiting for the sun to go down. managed to leave my house today (albeit to get a nitrogen tank for suicide) and it rained all day. even when the sun is out it feels like there's rain. life has gotten so dark. haven't showered or changed in six days. took a nap from pure exhaustion and had horrible nightmares. just woke up and wish I hadn't. why are we doomed to suffer like this?