Long time lurker

[notthistime]

I'm a long time lurker. This is the first time I have ever actually posted despite actively looking at the site the past couple years.

I am pretty close to being hospitalized and to be honest maybe that isn't a terrible thing? I mostly feel like dying because I am trapped. Trapped in my job, in my body in pain, and with family depending on me for everything. I don't know if anyone will see this or if it even matters I guess.

 

[whywere]

WELCOME! So nice having you here as a family member on SaSu.

YOU matter to me, 100% straight up on this aspect, as we are ALL in this together as family period.

I have 24/7 chronic pain from a nasty car crash, and we are brothers in arms on this part always.

Wishing you hugs, love and hopefully the darn pain goes down for you.

Walter

 

[notthistime]

Also. Was thinking about jumping off a tall building or bridge. Maybe at work lol.