Venting lonely but i guess i want to be

[etoilecupid]

i cut contact with most of my irl friends, and turns out theyve started talking bad about me. they expect an apology from me as i was being kinda petty, but at this point, i dont think i should eventalk to them. i hate being close to people but i crave closeness, and it's so stupid. i guess now the only people stopping me from committing ctb are my family but idk. i dont have any resources on me and id feel bad as my birthday is coming up, so i guess it wont be soon. im kinda a pushover, i care a lot forthings i shouldnt care about. i shouldnt care how other people would feel about my death as it's my decision but i still do. a little off topic from this, i kinda regret cutting myself sometimes. im gonna have to live with these scars for awhile and id hate for someone to point them out

 

[AbsentMindedHuman]

Its annoying how guilty the living make us feel. Cutting yourself to feel something doesnt make you a pushover, it makes you human, and many of us have sought out the same release. You are normal. Scars will fade and they dont make us any less, instead, they show how strong we have become. Dont get it twisted.

 

[etoilecupid]

Its annoying how guilty the living make us feel. Cutting yourself to feel something doesnt make you a pushover, it makes you human, and many of us have sought out the same release. You are normal. Scars will fade and they dont make us any less, instead, they show how strong we have become. Dont get it twisted.

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