LONELINESS

[Unattainable666]

There are many posts here regarding loneliness. My opinion, but I believe many want to ctb because they are lonely (alone) or have family and friends who don't understand them and feel alone. I've been alone for a very long time. At first it was ok, then I went through a period when I really wanted someone in my life (found someone on line - huge mistake). Now I'm alone again and I don't want anyone in my life. It seems to me that people use each other, they hurt each other and don't give a shit. It's so hard for me to understand how or why people treat each other that way. I realize I'm probably older than most on this site and I've got to say how sorry I am that young people today are growing up in a world where people dont; give a shit. My motto is I'd rather be lonely alone than lonely with someone in my life.

 

[day]

Relationships, friends, family, all that stuff seems like a way for people to use one another and have a reason for it. My parents try to use me all the time especially my mother then she gets angry when I tell her no (she wants money). I've stated on here before that I am not lonely, I have people, I know some of them care. Just feels like they care because they want to use me for their own good. IDK, when I get the courage to CTB hopefully they'll realize they've all used me to the point where I have nothing left to give.

Sorry to hear you're also suffering with life stuff OP feel better friend.

 

[leavingsoon99]

I think you hit the nail on the head. I feel so alone, in all aspects of human society. Family, friends, significant others... no matter what, I've found that I'm alone. I really tried to open up to others, only to be used, abused, insulted, pushed away, and rejected. I don't think humans realize how toxic and abusive they are. I'm not perfect, but I've never done anything like what's been done to me. Humans are, largely, selfish and opportunistic. Therefore, I choose not to deal with them any more than I have to. I wanted to join a coed softball league for exercise, but the thought of dealing with humans turned me off to that idea. TV makes human relationships look so easy and natural. That's one of the many insidious elements of this life. You're absolutely right, I'd rather be lonely alone. The loneliest place in the world is with a bunch a humans.

 

[Unattainable666]

Relationships, friends, family, all that stuff seems like a way for people to use one another and have a reason for it. My parents try to use me all the time especially my mother then she gets angry when I tell her no (she wants money). I've stated on here before that I am not lonely, I have people, I know some of them care. Just feels like they care because they want to use me for their own good. IDK, when I get the courage to CTB hopefully they'll realize they've all used me to the point where I have nothing left to give.

Sorry to hear you're also suffering with life stuff OP feel better friend.

I agree with you 100%. Sometimes parents are the worst! (the bitch who had me is a narcissist). I don't trust anyone anymore. It's too painful to care about someone and have them treat me like crap or reject me. It makes me so mad. I am so sorry you are going through this. We all deserve so much more.

 

[Zegers]

I think the best thing you can have in life is a good family, friends and people generally is more volatile.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

My biggest regret was not listening to my mum honestly when she clearly told me to block someone and never look back and she told me this on so many many different occasions and tbh I don't even know what's wrong with me because I just can't believe that I wasn't that smart to ditch this devil as my mum called him to me and she told me to never speak to him ever again and the worst of all my mum even sat me down and gave me a pep talk to stop associating with this guy and that is my biggest regret in life. The thought of him makes me sick and I have never hated someone as much as I hate him.

The moment he told a guy from my high school that I had slept with him should have been the end for me but he always came back with some half ass apologies and me being too weak is what has got me here. I truly despise him and I have never done so towards anyone in my lifetime.

 

[vitbar]

The loneliness and knowing it's not going to get better anytime soon weighs on me. I don't want to go off like this.

 

[90starve]

i completely agree with what you've said here - as a young person, this is a very big problem for me. i grew up playing outside with my friends - but eventually people start to turn to social media, which i think is one of the biggest causes of loneliness among our entire population now.

i truly feel so sad for the kids who have to grow up on tik tok and apps alike.

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally think that it's better to be alone as long as one exists here as the reality is that you cannot rely on other people, humans just very often create more suffering and make existing even more unbearable. To me the human species is just awful in general, it's really impossible to comprehend how much harm humans have caused all throughout history.