Venting Loneliness Communal Venting Thread

[EmptyBottle]

I hate the feelings of worthlessness that come from being neglected and rejected. Why doesn't anyone value me? I must be awful to be around.

I wonder if it is more of the other person, since it could likely be that

 

[Dejected 55]

I hate the feelings of worthlessness that come from being neglected and rejected. Why doesn't anyone value me? I must be awful to be around.

Random thought... is being rejected worse than being neglected? or vice-versa?

Rejection, to me anyway, has a range. A simple "no" rejection doesn't hurt me. I mean, I might be disappointed, but I can take and respect a no. Being rejected and insulted hurts... being rejected but then used or toyed with hurts more somehow... and being rejected in the form of just being ignored hurts the most in my opinion.

But then I think about neglect... neglect feels like it comes with more intent. To be neglected, I feel like it means the person has to acknowledge you and recognize you have needs and they consciously choose to neglect you... purposefully.

Does that make sense?

So neglect feels like a betrayal, I think... whereas rejection may or may not be personal at all.

 

[ForeverLonely82]

You can cry, scream, express your loneliness, do things to get more exposure be it positive or negative. It doesn't matter. Once you're lonely, you will ALWAYS be.

 

[Remember]

I don't even feel human. I feel like a ghost clumsily puppeteering a monster. I feel like a freak around other people, I'm always an outsider. I keep everyone at arm's length because I can't even attempt to get close without hurting them and being hurt. It's like a sad fucking joke every time I get my hopes up that someone will be my friend or lover. They just want to use me, or they don't yet understand what a fucking freakshow I am.

 

[EmptyBottle]

You can cry, scream, express your loneliness, do things to get more exposure be it positive or negative. It doesn't matter. Once you're lonely, you will ALWAYS be.

not always... tho yes, it is indeed quite tricky to start finding others. SaSu has helped me feel less lonely tho, and so does a community group I go to on Saturdays

 

[systemspace]

One sentence. I wish I didn't have to die alone.

 

[Spite]

Pretty much my entire life I've been lonely. It's all I really know. I've never had a social life or any kind of friend group.

As I'm getting older, it's becoming harder and harder to make friends. The problem is that most people in their 20s already have an established friend group and are not actively looking for new friends. Lots of people also form their friend groups while they are in school. I missed out on this entirely.

I finished high school with not a single friend, and now, ten years later, I am more-or-less the same unwanted, undesirable social reject I have always been. I'm pushing 30 now, and I really have nothing to show for it. I'm still a loner. I still have no experiences or cherished memories of ever hanging out with friends. I feel like this is what the rest of my life will look like. I'm really starting to believe that I truly was destined to be friendless.

 

[Doll Steak]

Yeah, I've wanted any type of friend or something I could find comfort in and vice versa for them, most people are not people I like though.

It feels like shit to desire something you know nobody owes you.