serah
Student
- May 6, 2020
- 177
I honestly don't get what's the point of living with social anxiety. What else is there to life than the relationships we make (platonic and romantic). I can't even hold a normal conversation with someone if it isn't one of my friends since childhood, even then I still struggle. It's embarrasingly hard to say simple things like "good morning" or "thank you" to a random stranger. Something that most people can do without thinking much of it, yet for me it is something so fucking hard to do. I feel like a failure of a human being, like a defect who won't be able to live a normal life. Went to an interview not that long ago, I wanted to die after realizing how much I was visibly shaking from the nerves. I feel like a freak, I know everyone in my life looks down on me because of my social anxiety. I wish I could just not care, maybe the anxiety would be less bad. I also wish I was just born normal, I'd still be a fuck up but at least I could do something as simple as havig human interactions with others.