Again, I live a good life
I do online courses so I can simply lounge around, play games, sleep, snack, all that at home (I still live with my parents). But, I keep skipping classes for the sole reason of "not wanting to" only to mindlessly scroll on social media or something, wasting my parents money. (They're also paying for my college). I'm really a waste of their time, love, effort, and energy, not to mention the financial half. Even then, I'm still always tired, everyday I just want to sleep in forever and never get up.
I never had an issue before even when I'd say I was the most "miserable" yet now I'm feeling too lazy to clean my room, brush my teeth, shower, typical hygiene things. I don't want to do work, I don't want to do anything. All I can say is "I'm tired," and my family will say, "everyone's tired."
I know, I know, I'm sorry, I'm really just a troublemaker. I need to get rid of myself sooner or later, I'm just deliberating, being a coward, making excuses for myself over and over. I'm unemployed too. "I'll get a job," I don't even get up to start applying… this happens a lot and at this point my mom will just go, "uh huh." I'm sorry. "IlL lose weight and start exercising," my dad gets annoyed now because of how frequently I've said it, I never do. I sit in bed and only get up to eat, on their paychecks. I'm just ranting, maybe I'm trying to make myself look pitiful or get sympathy even if I know it's all my fault. I'm a hypocrite. I should've never been born please let me die in my sleep because I'm a wussy afraid of pain
I'm tired already
I do online courses so I can simply lounge around, play games, sleep, snack, all that at home (I still live with my parents). But, I keep skipping classes for the sole reason of "not wanting to" only to mindlessly scroll on social media or something, wasting my parents money. (They're also paying for my college). I'm really a waste of their time, love, effort, and energy, not to mention the financial half. Even then, I'm still always tired, everyday I just want to sleep in forever and never get up.
I never had an issue before even when I'd say I was the most "miserable" yet now I'm feeling too lazy to clean my room, brush my teeth, shower, typical hygiene things. I don't want to do work, I don't want to do anything. All I can say is "I'm tired," and my family will say, "everyone's tired."
I know, I know, I'm sorry, I'm really just a troublemaker. I need to get rid of myself sooner or later, I'm just deliberating, being a coward, making excuses for myself over and over. I'm unemployed too. "I'll get a job," I don't even get up to start applying… this happens a lot and at this point my mom will just go, "uh huh." I'm sorry. "IlL lose weight and start exercising," my dad gets annoyed now because of how frequently I've said it, I never do. I sit in bed and only get up to eat, on their paychecks. I'm just ranting, maybe I'm trying to make myself look pitiful or get sympathy even if I know it's all my fault. I'm a hypocrite. I should've never been born please let me die in my sleep because I'm a wussy afraid of pain
I'm tired already
