Living is so painful

[EGR92]

Every day just seems to get worse. I physically hurt from living I'm in so much pain. Every morning i hate waking up to face another day.
I am determined to CTB and have decided on N to set my fate but unfortunately getting this isn't instant and it means i have to endure this pain for who knows how long until it arrives, if it even does. I'm still waiting to order it.
I wish there was an easy way to go. I'd of done it by now if there was, many years ago.
I've given up on living now, i never leave my bed. i lay in it all day consumed with thoughts of ctb. It's all i want.

 

[Anonymoussn]

I'm sorry to hear you're in so much pain.

If CTB was easy we wouldve gone extinct by now!

 

[Whenhopelostmemory]

I feel you... Does anyone wanna be in a ctb pact...we can be each other's support no matter what we decide until the end/beginning

 

[Anonymoussn]

I feel you... Does anyone wanna be in a ctb pact...we can be each other's support no matter what we decide until the end/beginning

Try the partners megathread, which can be found here:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...age-1-before-posting.1253/page-79#post-774459