living alone

[hybridtheory]

Who all lives alone on here? And do you think it makes you feel better or worse? Like having your own space and being able to do whatever you want, but also knowing you could ctb anytime and no one would ever know...

I got my own apartment and it's been so great not having to deal with family, but I also feel so fucking alone and my depression is making an appearance again. Usually, when I was living with people they would notice when it was getting bad again and they were able to help.. but now I have no one. I feel stuck in this apartment and I have no friends. God it can be so miserable.

 

[qwertylmno]

i used to live alone and it was very bad for me. with roommates, i have to force myself to look like a functioning human. in turn it kind of makes me one. do you have any pets?

 

[Trojan]

I live alone. Have no friends or family. And I like it.

 

[Pure]

There are pros and cons to it. If living alone is affecting you that badly then I'd recommend getting a pet, specifically a dog since they are loving.

Personally I'd rather live alone so I don't have to pretend I'm a functioning human. I think there's no need to worry over the idea of nobody finding you. Your living situation doesn't impact that, it's the strength of your relationships. I used to live with my parents when I was a minor and during summers off from college. They didn't give a shit about my blatant depression and I'd stay hours in my room. Quite a few of those parents trying to shut this forum down had their (adult) children ctb while living with them and it still took them hours to figure out their kid was dead so ‍

 

[Sprite_Geist]

I do not live alone, but I wish that I did.

 

[NormaJeane]

No one should die alone, but sometimes we have no choice. The suicide must often be alone, that is how death will be for me. Most people want nothing to do with death.

 

[BloodyNobody]

I used to love being alone, but now I hate myself so fucking much I I can't stand being alone, my head gets so loud, urges get stronger, boredom sets in. I live with my partner but she works a lot and when we argue she leaves and goes somewhere overnight. I think also suffering from bpd doesn't help as I believe when I'm alons I've been abandoned and it's one of the worst feelings in the world, being alone mentally disables me.
atleast I have time to properly plan and prepare and execute my ctb

 

[Bungled & Botched]

All the women in my family used to pity me for living alone. Like it was some kind of failure. But, now that they are older, they tell me I was the only smart one in the family.

 

[hybridtheory]

i used to live alone and it was very bad for me. with roommates, i have to force myself to look like a functioning human. in turn it kind of makes me one. do you have any pets?

yes, i have a little dog. if it wasn't for him, i don't think i would ever leave my house if i didn't have to.

I used to love being alone, but now I hate myself so fucking much I I can't stand being alone, my head gets so loud, urges get stronger, boredom sets in. I live with my partner but she works a lot and when we argue she leaves and goes somewhere overnight. I think also suffering from bpd doesn't help as I believe when I'm alons I've been abandoned and it's one of the worst feelings in the world, being alone mentally disables me.
atleast I have time to properly plan and prepare and execute my ctb

wooow this whole thing describes my situation so accurately, i have bpd as well and i feel like everyone forgets i exist because i live alone.

 

[qwertylmno]

I used to love being alone, but now I hate myself so fucking much I I can't stand being alone, my head gets so loud, urges get stronger, boredom sets in. I live with my partner but she works a lot and when we argue she leaves and goes somewhere overnight. I think also suffering from bpd doesn't help as I believe when I'm alons I've been abandoned and it's one of the worst feelings in the world, being alone mentally disables me.
atleast I have time to properly plan and prepare and execute my ctb

i hope one day your partner can understand you better

 

[fruit-loops]

No one should die alone, but sometimes we have no choice. The suicide must often be alone, that is how death will be for me. Most people want nothing to do with death.

No one should, but apparently we are fated to be, and I think that is the worst part of being suicidal

 

[cactus]

I live in a apartment alone. I was betrayed by my ex wife. After being alone for 3 years I feel like I have the freedom to end things without the guilt of the children finding me. Being alone can have perks such as eat what I want, watch Netflix as I want and get out and go anywhere I want without being guilted into what she wanted me to do.

 

[Makko]

I live alone without any family, pets or whatever and I can't imagine ever going back to having to share my living space with others. You need a place where you can hide.

 

[mediocre]

I have lived on my own for 10 years but only because I was made to move out from my parents house. I get money to live on but I am very isolated socially. I have autism. I am alone every day. It was nice in the beginning but as I've got older I have gotten more socially isolated. Now I find living alone very difficult and I have always struggled to look after myself.

its nice to have my own space but I rather wish I lived with others and had my own room and bathroom etc. Then I wouldn't feel so alone. Or somewhere I could have a little kitten or maybe a dog for company. I can't here.

so living alone is good for some people but not others. I think it depends on your mental state.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

financialrhino already said it for me. I've shared my existence with 2 dogs, 2nd dog 10yrs old, me nearly 50yrs old.

 

[Cant go back]

they were able to help..

What did they do to help you?

 

[Anonymous 4]

I live alone. Have no friends or family. And I like it.

I can relate to this, I lived like this for 6 years, and it was nice

 

[torimandy]

I live alone. i revel in the fact that I I CBT not one person would know or care until the rent is past due.

 

[BloodyNobody]

i hope one day your partner can understand you better

Thank you, I hope so too

 

[FuneralCry]

Living alone would be an ideal situation for me. I do not, but it would suit my personality as people can be exhausting. It would be beneficial for ctb methods as I wouldn't have a chance of being interrupted. I do have significant amounts of time spent on my own and I like my own company. I have a need for my own space.

 

[imaloserbaby]

I have lived alone on and off for the past few years and it seems like whichever situation I'm in, I start wishing I was in the other. Being alone is great in some ways because I can do whatever I want without answering to anyone, but I have noticed it's made my already bad social anxiety a lot worse when I DO have to be around other people. Before it was more of a choice to be solitary, now it's evolved into an actual fear of being around people. I know not everyone's in the same boat as me though, and for the most part I still prefer living alone over the alternative. I just don't know if it's been good for me or not. And if not...too late, I guess! It's certainly better in terms of ctb, it could be days before anyone would check on me.

 

[hybridtheory]

What did they do to help you?

i guess i wouldn't really call it helping, but they would notice when i'm depressed and would try to distract me and we would go out and do things
where as now when i get that way i have no one trying to check on me. i can hide things better sure which is great, i don't have to put up an act anymore
and pretend like everything is fine, but it just gets very lonely living alone. i feel like i'm going to end up going mad, especially because i hate leaving my house
and being around crowds... so if i'm not forced to go anywhere then i definitely will not leave my apartment.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

I can no longer handle it. I'm in a really toxic living situation...even if I had the funds I can't be alone. I have no desire to feed myself or do anything enjoyable.