living alone would definitely allow me to ctb, or atleast attempt.

[bigwomanbigwoman123]

anyone relate? i could definitely go outside and do it, ive planned that, but i havent left the house in months. even the thought of going into my own garden gives me anxiety at this point.

 

[gbi2]

I live alone and I agree it should be easier but sometimes it isn't. I have this fear of failing and just being able to get myself out of the situation, like hanging leaving me, well, hanging and unable to grab anything to reposition or abort. Or I fear if I break or damage something as the attempt fails, I don't have the money to fix it and if I can't make another attempt, it will be seen sooner or later by someone. I suppose this is the thing with not being able to think straight but wanting something to work 100%. Any tiny doubt can enter our heads and make us believe the problems that could occur and more likely than they really are.

 

[todeswunsch]

I'm currently living with my family and it indeed make things more complicated.
But when I was living by myself and still suicidal I still couldn't do it. It was easier but not easy.
SI is such a whore and a powerful one. At least for me