Literally physically uncomfortable with living

[SuicidalSymphonies]

It seems that every day my body is getting increasingly uncomfortable in its form.

So far there isn't much I can do to make the antsy feeling go away besides sleeping, which usually requires sedatives or just drugs in general.

No, I'm not an addict and I also don't do drugs often.... I've had this issue since way before dabbling with any of that.

It makes me incredibly restless, makes my feet and legs want to move, etc;

It also tempts me to just take my SN, thinking "Am I just bored with keeping myself alive?"

Uuugh. There has been a lot of darker clouds floating in my mind as of late.

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

i'm sorry you're being forced to live through this hell.

i know this is a weird suggestion, but if there's a graveyard near you, you could always take a walk there, to be closer to death and to alleviate yourself of restlessness.

 

[zettatron]

I also sometimes struggle with wondering whether or not I'm becoming literally "bored to death"... Although I find comfort in the fact that.. normal people just don't feel that way. Normal brains don't feel so bored that suicide is a viable solution to alleviating that boredom.

Also that I am bored because I am aggressively suicidal, I don't think I'm suicidal because I'm bored.