beatenghost
Member
- May 26, 2019
- 40
If I didn't have my two cats I would be gone right now. I love my cats with my entire heart. I would honestly do anything for them. I am enduring this pain for them and them only. But god the pain is so unbearable. This world is so cruel, I can't protect them if I abandon them in it but I don't see any option for me. It's either endure at least another 15 years of unimaginable pain or I must go through returning them to their foster home before CTB. CTB is far easier than the act of giving over my own two baby boys to the world, scared and confused, heartbroken that their mother abandoned them how I did. They can't understand what i'm going through, all they'll come away with is broken hearts and pain they don't even fully understnad. Why why why why was I put into this life. Why was I cursed with a heart that loves them so much. Why couldn't I stop feeling.