I've waited so long

I've waited so long

Student
Jul 11, 2018
141
1. Mentally Ill
2. Been Suicidal Since 13
3.Family Problems
4.Nothing Makes Me Happy.
5. I don't Want To be a Slave (WORK)
6. Short Compared to My Little Brothers. I'm 5'9-5'10/Them Both Cracking Six Feet.
7. My dick is small 5in at maximum hardness. Hey Ladies.
8.I'm a coward and afraid of everything.
9 i'm a virgin. 25. I'd Do it with a prostitute.
10.neet
 
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I've waited so long

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Student
Jul 11, 2018
141
I'm looking at my list with a smile on my face. I'm A Fucking Retard.
 
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I've waited so long

I've waited so long

Student
Jul 11, 2018
141
11. I'm Retareded.
 
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I've waited so long

I've waited so long

Student
Jul 11, 2018
141
Feel Free to make your own list.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
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You have my permission to go see a prostitute. By 25 I feel like you should at least have one sexual experience.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
My reasons for dying:
1. Don't want a job unless it was satisfying
2. Mental health problems
3. Getting old and unattractive
4. Multiple abortions and no kids as a result
5. Lots of student loan debt
6. No partner
7. Bordering on homeless
8. Family relations strained
9. Poverty
10.Menopause
11.Living under socialism
 
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I've waited so long

I've waited so long

Student
Jul 11, 2018
141
My reasons for dying:
1. Don't want a job unless it was satisfying
2. Mental health problems
3. Getting old and unattractive
4. Multiple abortions and no kids as a result
5. Lots of student loan debt
6. No partner
7. Bordering on homeless
8. Family relations strained
9. Poverty
10.Menopause
11.Living under socialism
Holy Shit, Wtf. Where are You From?
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
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I've waited so long

I've waited so long

Student
Jul 11, 2018
141
I currently live in Denver, CO but born in Hungary and grew up in South Dakota for the elementary and high school years.
I Live in Colorado Too. Sorry For All The Shit That Has Landed On You. IF God Exists He better not be an asshole and let you in.
 
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itsallover

Arcanist
Jun 29, 2018
478
Just physical pain for me. Before my illness I was happy with the absolute least possible. Now I feel like I'm totally screwed. I hate doctors. They screwed me up and now they have no decent way of relieving my pain. The world is completely unfair.
 
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Student
Jul 11, 2018
141
Just physical pain for me. Before my illness I was happy with the absolute least possible. Now I feel like I'm totally screwed. I hate doctors. They screwed me up and now they have no decent way of relieving my pain. The world is completely unfair.
Can You Sue?
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
Yea doctors have become dangerous, because they are educated according to what the gov wants, not what is necessarily the most gentle, least invasive, preventative, optimal, or in best interest of the patient. Profit over people is what we have now. Not about cure, it's about treating symptoms.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
I Live in Colorado Too. Sorry For All The Shit That Has Landed On You. IF God Exists He better not be an asshole and let you in.
I feel like maybe I deserved it all. I was just not a good person and didn't do the right things. It's like I exaggerated my own suffering by making things worse than they had to be. Maybe I deserved it.
 
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I've waited so long

Student
Jul 11, 2018
141
I feel like maybe I deserved it all. I was just not a good person and didn't do the right things. It's like I exaggerated my own suffering by making things worse than they had to be. Maybe I deserved it.
Maybe We All deserved it.
 
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ghoulish.fool

Member
Apr 16, 2018
40
1. Mentally Ill
2. Been Suicidal Since 13
3.Family Problems
4.Nothing Makes Me Happy.
5. I don't Want To be a Slave (WORK)
6. Short Compared to My Little Brothers. I'm 5'9-5'10/Them Both Cracking Six Feet.
7. My dick is small 5in at maximum hardness. Hey Ladies.
8.I'm a coward and afraid of everything.
9 i'm a virgin. 25. I'd Do it with a prostitute.
10.neet
I can't speak for all of them but for your height and dick size, neither are bad at all. 5'9"-10" is still pretty tall but I understand insecurities and nothing can make you change how you feel. 5" penis is pretty average and can do the job plenty well for many women. Plus there are your fingers and mouth that can also work wonders with some practice.

There is ABSOLUTELY NOTHING shameful about seeing an escort to lose your virginity, experiment, gain experience, or just to get laid. Sex is fun for many people and if you want to experience it then do it. I know its expensive but it may be worth it and lessen future nerves when it comes to sleeping with someone who isn't an escort.
 
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I've waited so long

I've waited so long

Student
Jul 11, 2018
141
I can't speak for all of them but for your height and dick size, neither are bad at all. 5'9"-10" is still pretty tall but I understand insecurities and nothing can make you change how you feel. 5" penis is pretty average and can do the job plenty well for many women. Plus there are your fingers and mouth that can also work wonders with some practice.

There is ABSOLUTELY NOTHING shameful about seeing an escort to lose your virginity, experiment, gain experience, or just to get laid. Sex is fun for many people and if you want to experience it then do it. I know its expensive but it may be worth it and lessen future nerves when it comes to sleeping with someone who isn't an escort.
Thx <3 I needed That. This is pretty much what i think and know but i'm listenting to Goth/Emo Music and Feeling self pity. So I made this post. You're A Good Person.
 
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ghoulish.fool

Member
Apr 16, 2018
40
My reasons

- the world is an endlessly fucked up place
- no friends
- I'm a bipolar nutcase
- I hate myself
- few things are enjoyable to me
- I'm sick of crying every single day
- the pain of her disliking me so much when I liked and loved her more than anyone to this day
- the nonstop anxiety
- the panic attacks
- the fear of normal adult responsibilities
- the days when I can barely function but have to go to work anyways to keep my job
- gender issues
- I can't shake the feeling that all the troubles in my life are trivial and I'm a weak, pathetic person for not being able to navigate them successfully

Reasons I want to live
- my dog
- music
- the idea that someone may love me again
 
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ghoulish.fool

Member
Apr 16, 2018
40
Thx <3 I needed That. This is pretty much what i think and know but i'm listenting to Goth/Emo Music and Feeling self pity. So I made this post. You're A Good Person.
I constantly self pity myself and feel like a little boohoo baby so I get that. I listen to lots of emo music too. Also you're welcome :)
 
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I've waited so long

I've waited so long

Student
Jul 11, 2018
141
My reasons

- the world is an endlessly fucked up place
- no friends
- I'm a bipolar nutcase
- I hate myself
- few things are enjoyable to me
- I'm sick of crying every single day
- the pain of her disliking me so much when I liked and loved her more than anyone to this day
- the nonstop anxiety
- the panic attacks
- the fear of normal adult responsibilities
- the days when I can barely function but have to go to work anyways to keep my job
- gender issues
- I can't shake the feeling that all the troubles in my life are trivial and I'm a weak, pathetic person for not being able to navigate them successfully

Reasons I want to live
- my dog
- music
- the idea that someone may love me again
"the world is an endlessly fucked up place" I should of added this one
 
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I've waited so long

I've waited so long

Student
Jul 11, 2018
141
My reasons

- the world is an endlessly fucked up place
- no friends
- I'm a bipolar nutcase
- I hate myself
- few things are enjoyable to me
- I'm sick of crying every single day
- the pain of her disliking me so much when I liked and loved her more than anyone to this day
- the nonstop anxiety
- the panic attacks
- the fear of normal adult responsibilities
- the days when I can barely function but have to go to work anyways to keep my job
- gender issues
- I can't shake the feeling that all the troubles in my life are trivial and I'm a weak, pathetic person for not being able to navigate them successfully

Reasons I want to live
- my dog
- music
- the idea that someone may love me again
Your Life is Worse Than Mine and I'm Sorry This World Is Strangling You. I Belive You Have The Power To Fix It Tho.
 
ghoulish.fool

ghoulish.fool

Member
Apr 16, 2018
40
Your Life is Worse Than Mine and I'm Sorry This World Is Strangling You. I Belive You Have The Power To Fix It Tho.
Let's not compare. All of our problems are valid. All of our concerns or dislikes about life are valid. I appreciate your sentiment nonetheless.
 
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ghoulish.fool

Member
Apr 16, 2018
40
To relate with others, not feel shamed for my desire to CTB, sense of community, and to perfect my method so when it comes to the day I'll be successful in my attempt. I'm going to try to make it to 2019 so I guess chatting with other sad people is nice for the time being.

What about you?
 
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I've waited so long

Student
Jul 11, 2018
141
To relate with others, not feel shamed for my desire to CTB, sense of community, and to perfect my method so when it comes to the day I'll be successful in my attempt. I'm going to try to make it to 2019 so I guess chatting with other sad people is nice for the time being.

What about you?
Same, I Think I want to get better but it's Nice To Know theirs similar thinking sad peeps with alternatives than life.
 
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I just find this world extremely repulsive. This is what I think about mother earth and her fellow humans
 
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wanttodie

Enlightened
Apr 19, 2018
1,805
suffering from depression and anxiety problems and . My brain can't work fast enough for the world and i hate life and living this way i want to end my life so all well end my life soon
 
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I've waited so long

I've waited so long

Student
Jul 11, 2018
141
suffering from depression and anxiety problems and . My brain can't work fast enough for the world and i hate life and living this way i want to end my life so all well end my life soon
Thanks For Sharing. I Wish For Your Wish.
 
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shin

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Jul 11, 2018
9
I would write something but ghoulish.fool has already said everything I had to say and some more. Again. She's basically me, LOL
 
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