Venting life's so fucking hard

[k3v3r]

I don't know what to do, i'm in a locked psych ward. I really want to kill myself, but every method will have the possibility of getting caught. If i attempt suicide i'll be here for even longer (i've been here for 6 months now) and they'll just think i'm doing it to get attention (when they think i'm attention seeking, they get real fuckiing angry and yell at me) Not being able to self harm or commit suicide is driving me crazy. All i can think about is past traumatic memories and suicide and self harm. I can't get better, my mood is constantly up and down. In 1 day i'll be suuuuper happy, very angry, so depressed and anxious all at once.
In my depressed moods (i'm in one right now) i get very impulsive, and if i can't self harm i'll get very desperate in attempting suicide, the staff will find me and they think i'm doing it for attention, but they still won't fucking release me

 

[LifeOver]

Suiciding in psych ward is not recommended: the chance to get caught is too high. How long is it until they release you? You can make an attempt afterwards.

 

[Dawn0071111]

Gosh it must suck so bad to be locked up in a place where you dont feel understood & they yell at you. Definitely don't do anything while your there.... the doctor will keep you longer than you would like. Since you seem to have some access to the internet try to come to this form or find other forms of support while you're there and all I can say honey it's just try to hangin there and follow the program there so that you can get released as soon as possible...... it can be so stressful not having your freedom on top of feeling like you're not in control of your moods and emotions it's awful and I'm so sorry to hear that you're suffering...... you just sound like you're in a lot of pain and trying to figure out how to make it better that's like all of us..

Huggz

 

[Rocksandsand]

Oh @k3v3r you poor soul. May I ask what country you're in? Feel free to keep it to yourself - a six month admission sounds absurd to me though. In my country, there's tribunals a person can appeal to if they think their admission is unfair. Is that an option for you? I worry about your human rights

 

[CURSED again]

Hope you can weather the storm ok - best wishes - when i was in i couldt even have an old cell phone let alone be connected to the internet. Just try to get out peacefully. I will be thinking of you.

 

[pole]

I don't know what to do, i'm in a locked psych ward. I really want to kill myself, but every method will have the possibility of getting caught. If i attempt suicide i'll be here for even longer (i've been here for 6 months now) and they'll just think i'm doing it to get attention (when they think i'm attention seeking, they get real fuckiing angry and yell at me) Not being able to self harm or commit suicide is driving me crazy. All i can think about is past traumatic memories and suicide and self harm. I can't get better, my mood is constantly up and down. In 1 day i'll be suuuuper happy, very angry, so depressed and anxious all at once.
In my depressed moods (i'm in one right now) i get very impulsive, and if i can't self harm i'll get very desperate in attempting suicide, the staff will find me and they think i'm doing it for attention, but they still won't fucking release me

in the same boat as you lol. Turned 19, might just give it 1 or 2 years, maybe things somehow magically start to go my way for once, but still have suicide at the back of my mind.

 

[capitalJ]

and they'll just think i'm doing it to get attention (when they think i'm attention seeking, they get real fuckiing angry and yell at me)

Is that really true? That sounds like a really fucked up psychiatric ward. One would think they would've been trained for something like that, instead of just assuming it's for attention.

Regardless, I really wish you the best, try to live through this shit until you get released, however hard it may be, then you can make your own thought out decisions.