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intel_core5

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May 20, 2026
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1I'm an 18-year-old male. Since childhood, I've had and believed in wild dreams, but now I'm trapped in a dead end, and every day I breathe brings me nothing but pain.It's like I'm breathing poison instead of oxygen. I believe death will fix everything, but at the same time, I want to live. I have dreams and a lover I adore... she's the one pushing me to live.But still, the pain is unbearable; I wasn't born lucky at all. I was born with mental and neurological problems. ca Working a job is extremely painful for me, not physically but mentally. But staying at home causes endless problems with my family.I don't really like them.
 
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NZkiwi

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Sep 17, 2019
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I'm sorry to hear that you feel trapped.
Hope you are able to vent here is a safe space

Where in the world/country are you
I moved out at home when I was 17 and that really helped me get agency back in my life
 

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