finish.me

finish.me

I need you to feel this
Jul 14, 2021
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im anorexic and im restricting atm and i would honestly rather be dead then have my body be seen unless its emaciated but i love food its literally the /only/ color in my life and i just fucking cant stand how if i eat i still feel disgusting and terrible and like my life is fucking worthless and like a retarded fat unloveable disgusting slob and when i dont eat its like everything that invokes any kind of fucking speck of momentary happiness or at least FUCKING distracts me doesn't do it and i just wait till im allowed to eat again thinking and fantasizing about food. why do i have to be alive.
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

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I'm on 4th day of water fasting and this is mood.
 
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PeacefulTonic

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I used to love food. Now I have absolutely no appetite because of how depressed and suicidal I've become. I've lost almost 20 pounds ever since.
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

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im jealous -_- i just finished day 1 of my fast..
The first 2-3 days are usually the worst tbh. I don't feel hunger anymore. Still, my life is about 40% more tedious without food.
 
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CowsAreCool

Student
Sep 21, 2021
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I'm on 4th day of water fasting and this is mood.
How is it? I have been meaning to try it for a while. My mom is convinced anxiety is caused by bad gut health, and that I need to water fast for a month to fix it.
 
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Cheers

Cheers

✨suicide is self-care✨
Oct 8, 2021
112
Catch me planning what i'll binge on during the few days before i ctb
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

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How is it? I have been meaning to try it for a while. My mom is convinced anxiety is caused by bad gut health, and that I need to water fast for a month to fix it.
I have fasted for 10 then 7 days, then twice I broke the fast on morning of 3rd day due to feeling too bad due to low sugar — like, you make ten steps and you get tunnel vision bad.

For me the first two days are when I feel the worst hunger. The 3rd day is when I feel the weakest. I have about 15kgs of excess weight and I'm already down 4 (most of it has to be water and therefore not sustainable, but the rate is a bit alarming, I might break early due to it). There's also this weird shin pain from yesterday that got quite bad by the night. If it doesn't go away, I'm considering quitting earlier.

I would say fasting is not for everybody. Going for 2 weeks or more you'd definitely would need to supplement micronutrients too, and the time to break is very individual (if hunger returns, then your energy resources are totally up) so don't blindly listen to your mom. That being said, I find it way easier to fast than manage a diet just because of fasting being a simple binary. It also has a side-effect of resetting my taste buds so I don't crave the shit food so much, allowing me to adjust my taste to a healthier one, though I eventually relapse due to how much I can't be arsed to cook. And if worst comes to shove, I already have a CTB plan with several backups anyway so permanent damage to my organism isn't too big of a concern.

I've no idea how fasting on its own affects the gut microbiome (which apparently might be linked to anxiety, meta-analysis here), but supposedly it's much easier to maintain with a proper diet that in turn gets easier to do after fasting.
 
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xLosthopex

xLosthopex

Tell my dogs I love them
May 29, 2020
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I'm anorexic too but I'm a great purger, so I can eat whatever I want and still lose weight, however it's both a blessing and a curse…
 
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finish.me

finish.me

I need you to feel this
Jul 14, 2021
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How is it? I have been meaning to try it for a while. My mom is convinced anxiety is caused by bad gut health, and that I need to water fast for a month to fix it.
a fucking month lol?? that would kill you. health professionals only recommend like at MOST 3 days of fasting without a doctors supervision and after that it gets dangerous as hell
The 3rd day is when I feel the weakest.
god yeah that third day is the worst for me too. its killer
 
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CowsAreCool

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Sep 21, 2021
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I have fasted for 10 then 7 days, then twice I broke the fast on morning of 3rd day due to feeling too bad due to low sugar — like, you make ten steps and you get tunnel vision bad.

For me the first two days are when I feel the worst hunger. The 3rd day is when I feel the weakest. I have about 15kgs of excess weight and I'm already down 4 (most of it has to be water and therefore not sustainable, but the rate is a bit alarming, I might break early due to it). There's also this weird shin pain from yesterday that got quite bad by the night. If it doesn't go away, I'm considering quitting earlier.

I would say fasting is not for everybody. Going for 2 weeks or more you'd definitely would need to supplement micronutrients too, and the time to break is very individual (if hunger returns, then your energy resources are totally up) so don't blindly listen to your mom. That being said, I find it way easier to fast than manage a diet just because of fasting being a simple binary. It also has a side-effect of resetting my taste buds so I don't crave the shit food so much, allowing me to adjust my taste to a healthier one, though I eventually relapse due to how much I can't be arsed to cook. And if worst comes to shove, I already have a CTB plan with several backups anyway so permanent damage to my organism isn't too big of a concern.

I've no idea how fasting on its own affects the gut microbiome (which apparently might be linked to anxiety, meta-analysis here), but supposedly it's much easier to maintain with a proper diet that in turn gets easier to do after fasting.
This is really interesting. Thank you!
I have a terrible diet right now, so I will have to try it. I am underweight, so I figure a shorter fast is the way to go. 30 days is out of the question. I wonder where she got that number. I suppose its a good number for CTB.
 
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91Days

91Days

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Oct 14, 2021
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I'm anorexic too but I'm a great purger, so I can eat whatever I want and still lose weight, however it's both a blessing and a curse…
How does purging work wouldn't you have digested the food before you throw it up
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
940
I have a terrible diet right now, so I will have to try it. I am underweight, so I figure a shorter fast is the way to go. 30 days is out of the question. I wonder where she got that number. I suppose its a good number for CTB.
If you're underweight, fasting is more risky due to not having fat reserves to burn for fuel. I really suggest consulting with a doctor on whether it's safe for you.
 
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BrokenHopes

BrokenHopes

What doesn't kill you, f*cks you up.
Nov 27, 2019
162
Eating disorders are horrible! I am sorry you are going through such pain. I can relate alot to what you are writing. But I have a binge eating disorder. Right now I am trying to restrict though and my mind is always on food. It takes over your life.
I hope you can develope a healthy relationship with food in the future.
I wish you peace and strength.
 
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xLosthopex

xLosthopex

Tell my dogs I love them
May 29, 2020
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How does purging work wouldn't you have digested the food before you throw it up
No, I do it before it has time to digest
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
37,281
Personally, I hate eating at the moment. It is hard work forcing myself to eat. Food just makes me feel ill. I would happily live without food. I'm sorry you are suffering. I wish you the best.
 
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kurisutinabestgirl

kurisutinabestgirl

Kurisu is best girl
Oct 14, 2021
82
I also love food. It's such an amazing coping mechanism.
I try to starve myself on purpose most of the time, since I don't feel like I deserve food, and I gain weight very easily, but still, I always await the moment when I finally get to feast.[
May food give us power :)!
 
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halcyon

halcyon

want to die n be free with my love<3
Jul 13, 2021
29
I feel you. I've struggled with anorexia for years, it's horrible. I'm sorry you have to deal with this.
 
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blueclover_.

blueclover_.

Better Never to Have Been: 2006, David Benatar
Oct 11, 2021
668
I tried water fasting when i was in 7th grade. Lost a month worth of weight loss in just 3 days. I've never been that emotionally connected to food, sometimes it feels like a chore to sit and fill my stomach with dead organisms. So to people like me water fasting is not really hard and it's quite beneficial for the human body. Always take your vitamin supplements though!
 
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darkenmydoorstep

darkenmydoorstep

Not Waving But Browned Off….
Sep 27, 2023
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im anorexic and im restricting atm and i would honestly rather be dead then have my body be seen unless its emaciated but i love food its literally the /only/ color in my life and i just fucking cant stand how if i eat i still feel disgusting and terrible and like my life is fucking worthless and like a retarded fat unloveable disgusting slob and when i dont eat its like everything that invokes any kind of fucking speck of momentary happiness or at least FUCKING distracts me doesn't do it and i just wait till im allowed to eat again thinking and fantasizing about food. why do i have to be
 

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