Venting Life is boring and pointless

[Spite]

The longer I go on, the longer I live, the more bored and tired I am becoming of life. Almost nothing brings me joy anymore and I don't really look forward to anything. Pretty much everything feels like a drag, even the simplest things like cooking, eating, showering, brushing my teeth, putting on my shoes, driving my car. Much of life comes down to repetition and routine: working a 9-to-5, waking up and doing the same mundane shit over and over again, coping by consuming media in my free time and trying to distract myself with creative hobbies. Rinse and repeat ad infinitum. Kinda makes me not want to be here anymore, you know?

I used to have some zest for life when I was a kid - some semblance of curiosity and fascination that came with learning about all kinds of things while I was growing up, but the older I'm getting the more bleak everything feels. My life feels colourless and it's been that way for a long time. I'm just a husk of a human being now. There's not much more I can say.

It's all so pointless, and I'm so fucking tired of this. I wish I had the courage to end myself.

 

[lpdsvm]

I often think (I copied my own comment) I will get sick one day or even worse. I am not immortal. I will lose my job anyway. Like why should I go to work tomorrow? SN can "cure" me now.
Not like I hate my job. I hate to overthink if I am not enough there
It is because of my pro life policy. No CTB if I can live decently without looking for food or thinking about how to stay safe from any trouble
Funny, sad, and weird.
"Revolution is brewing in my head"
There could be changes soon.

 

[kuroshimi]

I stopped planning and also stopped enjoying life. I think I also got caught up in the repetition and routine cycle. Not working yet, but currently studying at university and I simply don't know what to do after I graduate. Most of the time I am distracting myself by listening to music or just reading random articles and watching videos.

I always wanted to be simply understood and be left alone, but it never happened. And since then I lost any faith in life.