Letters to future husband

[FireFox]

Dear future husband

I am so sorry I never got to meet you. My name is FireFox and I catched the bus at 24 years old . I died alone in a tent in the woods using a toxic gas. I wore my favourite dress with cherries and passed away peacefully.

I used to be happy and wanted adventure. I wanted to make the world a better place and I had so many ideas . I wanted a career in diplomatic service or be a lawyer . My interests were in politics. Whenever there was an election I would stay up all night watching the results.
I attended the women's march against Donald trump in 2017 and marched against tuition fees.
As well as politics I loved watching sci fi programs , going to museums and parks. I hate clubs and bars.

I wanted to visit icleand

I was sucidal for years mainly because I saw my life as a failure . I lived all these years and had nothing to show for it. I never had a job, never been traveling on my own, I felt so lost after graduating university. In the UK a law degree does not make you a lawyer and it is extremely difficult to qualify. I just lost interest in my degree.

Seeing people I went to school with having careers and relationships I felt like a loser.

I went to a church party during the Christmas holidays and one of the mothers of girl I went to school with asked what I was doing. Her children were at university. I couldn't answer. It was so humiliating. When my nosey relatives phone my grandmother they ask what I have been doing lately and my nan struggles to answer. Being unemployed I felt like a burden on my family as well as an embrassment

I never had a boyfriend. I had so much love to give but no one seemed to be interested. Being single made me feel undesirable and unwanted. Seeing couples happy broke me as I was being reminded of what I dont have and always wanted

Seeding how awful my life turned out to be I didn't want to live to see the next 10 years so I ended it all . Sucide for me was all about control . I couldn't control how lived but I felt so much control when I chose I die

I didn't belong in this world it is really no ones fault.

The hours before my death I did think of you. Wondering what future we could have had together. Never knowing your name , never finding you , never holding you all these things did upset me .

The only thing that gave me comfort in the hours before my death was knowing I would have been a loving and affectionate wife towards you . If we did marry I would have loved hearing about your day at work, I would have made sure we did fun and crazy stuff together like canoeing in the Norwegian fjords, visiting Snowdonia in Wales or visit area 51 or some ufo convention . More importantly if you were sad I would have comforted you through your pain

Being single for a long time the desire for a loving relationship grows as the years go by . It becomes harder to deal with .

Future husband wherever you are enjoy your life . Listen to your friends or family if they are sucidal . Nobody listened to me . They all said I was going to be fine .

Love
FireFox

 

[Arrow]

im a pretty cold, empty person, but this post hit me.

 

[TheNorthernSilence]

You carry too much weight on your shoulder. Your heart is gold and that's what matters.

 

[Fedrea]

Dear future husband

I am so sorry I never got to meet you. My name is FireFox and I catched the bus at 24 years old . I died alone in a tent in the woods using a toxic gas. I wore my favourite dress with cherries and passed away peacefully.

I used to be happy and wanted adventure. I wanted to make the world a better place and I had so many ideas . I wanted a career in diplomatic service or be a lawyer . My interests were in politics. Whenever there was an election I would stay up all night watching the results.
I attended the women's march against Donald trump in 2017 and marched against tuition fees.
As well as politics I loved watching sci fi programs , going to museums and parks. I hate clubs and bars.

I wanted to visit icleand

I was sucidal for years mainly because I saw my life as a failure . I lived all these years and had nothing to show for it. I never had a job, never been traveling on my own, I felt so lost after graduating university. In the UK a law degree does not make you a lawyer and it is extremely difficult to qualify. I just lost interest in my degree.

Seeing people I went to school with having careers and relationships I felt like a loser.

I went to a church party during the Christmas holidays and one of the mothers of girl I went to school with asked what I was doing. Her children were at university. I couldn't answer. It was so humiliating. When my nosey relatives phone my grandmother they ask what I have been doing lately and my nan struggles to answer. Being unemployed I felt like a burden on my family as well as an embrassment

I never had a boyfriend. I had so much love to give but no one seemed to be interested. Being single made me feel undesirable and unwanted. Seeing couples happy broke me as I was being reminded of what I dont have and always wanted

Seeding how awful my life turned out to be I didn't want to live to see the next 10 years so I ended it all . Sucide for me was all about control . I couldn't control how lived but I felt so much control when I chose I die

I didn't belong in this world it is really no ones fault.

The hours before my death I did think of you. Wondering what future we could have had together. Never knowing your name , never finding you , never holding you all these things did upset me .

The only thing that gave me comfort in the hours before my death was knowing I would have been a loving and affectionate wife towards you . If we did marry I would have loved hearing about your day at work, I would have made sure we did fun and crazy stuff together like canoeing in the Norwegian fjords, visiting Snowdonia in Wales or visit area 51 or some ufo convention . More importantly if you were sad I would have comforted you through your pain

Being single for a long time the desire for a loving relationship grows as the years go by . It becomes harder to deal with .

Future husband wherever you are enjoy your life . Listen to your friends or family if they are sucidal . Nobody listened to me . They all said I was going to be fine .

Love
FireFox

You still have EVERY chance of meeting this person.

 

[Emily123]

Honey . You are full of hope and ambitious . you can accept love in your life . why should somebody like you be suicidal . Failure doesn't no means that you'll fail the rest of your life . You may need to change some methods in your life or work more for your goals .But suicide is not for you . Be alive and give a letter full of love to your future husband

 

[2020wanderlust]

Being with someone isn't that big a deal... As humans we are social and want to follow the norm, but you don't have to. Sometimes I would rather be on my own as you can think more clearly and can follow whatever dream or goal you want... Remember that you can do a lot of good in this world if you put your mind to it. Go on some of those adventures at least.. sometimes you have to work yourself up as education isn't everything but it makes it all the more rewarding in the end.

I am also in the UK so if you need someone to chat to my inbox is open.

 

[Misery99]

Dear future husband

I am so sorry I never got to meet you. My name is FireFox and I catched the bus at 24 years old . I died alone in a tent in the woods using a toxic gas. I wore my favourite dress with cherries and passed away peacefully.

I used to be happy and wanted adventure. I wanted to make the world a better place and I had so many ideas . I wanted a career in diplomatic service or be a lawyer . My interests were in politics. Whenever there was an election I would stay up all night watching the results.
I attended the women's march against Donald trump in 2017 and marched against tuition fees.
As well as politics I loved watching sci fi programs , going to museums and parks. I hate clubs and bars.

I wanted to visit icleand

I was sucidal for years mainly because I saw my life as a failure . I lived all these years and had nothing to show for it. I never had a job, never been traveling on my own, I felt so lost after graduating university. In the UK a law degree does not make you a lawyer and it is extremely difficult to qualify. I just lost interest in my degree.

Seeing people I went to school with having careers and relationships I felt like a loser.

I went to a church party during the Christmas holidays and one of the mothers of girl I went to school with asked what I was doing. Her children were at university. I couldn't answer. It was so humiliating. When my nosey relatives phone my grandmother they ask what I have been doing lately and my nan struggles to answer. Being unemployed I felt like a burden on my family as well as an embrassment

I never had a boyfriend. I had so much love to give but no one seemed to be interested. Being single made me feel undesirable and unwanted. Seeing couples happy broke me as I was being reminded of what I dont have and always wanted

Seeding how awful my life turned out to be I didn't want to live to see the next 10 years so I ended it all . Sucide for me was all about control . I couldn't control how lived but I felt so much control when I chose I die

I didn't belong in this world it is really no ones fault.

The hours before my death I did think of you. Wondering what future we could have had together. Never knowing your name , never finding you , never holding you all these things did upset me .

The only thing that gave me comfort in the hours before my death was knowing I would have been a loving and affectionate wife towards you . If we did marry I would have loved hearing about your day at work, I would have made sure we did fun and crazy stuff together like canoeing in the Norwegian fjords, visiting Snowdonia in Wales or visit area 51 or some ufo convention . More importantly if you were sad I would have comforted you through your pain

Being single for a long time the desire for a loving relationship grows as the years go by . It becomes harder to deal with .

Future husband wherever you are enjoy your life . Listen to your friends or family if they are sucidal . Nobody listened to me . They all said I was going to be fine .

Love
FireFox

Your life story does sound kinda similar to me except that I don't even have a degree. I feel like a loser, a failure when comparing my life to peers.

 

[krsu]

I just met you a few days ago but I will really miss you good luck in the afterlife

 

[anonymoose]

Dear future husband

I am so sorry I never got to meet you. My name is FireFox and I catched the bus at 24 years old . I died alone in a tent in the woods using a toxic gas. I wore my favourite dress with cherries and passed away peacefully.

I used to be happy and wanted adventure. I wanted to make the world a better place and I had so many ideas . I wanted a career in diplomatic service or be a lawyer . My interests were in politics. Whenever there was an election I would stay up all night watching the results.
I attended the women's march against Donald trump in 2017 and marched against tuition fees.
As well as politics I loved watching sci fi programs , going to museums and parks. I hate clubs and bars.

I wanted to visit icleand

I was sucidal for years mainly because I saw my life as a failure . I lived all these years and had nothing to show for it. I never had a job, never been traveling on my own, I felt so lost after graduating university. In the UK a law degree does not make you a lawyer and it is extremely difficult to qualify. I just lost interest in my degree.

Seeing people I went to school with having careers and relationships I felt like a loser.

I went to a church party during the Christmas holidays and one of the mothers of girl I went to school with asked what I was doing. Her children were at university. I couldn't answer. It was so humiliating. When my nosey relatives phone my grandmother they ask what I have been doing lately and my nan struggles to answer. Being unemployed I felt like a burden on my family as well as an embrassment

I never had a boyfriend. I had so much love to give but no one seemed to be interested. Being single made me feel undesirable and unwanted. Seeing couples happy broke me as I was being reminded of what I dont have and always wanted

Seeding how awful my life turned out to be I didn't want to live to see the next 10 years so I ended it all . Sucide for me was all about control . I couldn't control how lived but I felt so much control when I chose I die

I didn't belong in this world it is really no ones fault.

The hours before my death I did think of you. Wondering what future we could have had together. Never knowing your name , never finding you , never holding you all these things did upset me .

The only thing that gave me comfort in the hours before my death was knowing I would have been a loving and affectionate wife towards you . If we did marry I would have loved hearing about your day at work, I would have made sure we did fun and crazy stuff together like canoeing in the Norwegian fjords, visiting Snowdonia in Wales or visit area 51 or some ufo convention . More importantly if you were sad I would have comforted you through your pain

Being single for a long time the desire for a loving relationship grows as the years go by . It becomes harder to deal with .

Future husband wherever you are enjoy your life . Listen to your friends or family if they are sucidal . Nobody listened to me . They all said I was going to be fine .

Love
FireFox

When i read this i almost had to question if i was the one who typed it. I resonate with you so deeply. I am in your exact shoes. I grew up in a poor part of my country and have never been able to really escape. my dream was also to do something like you. as a teen i never got to fully embrace my feelings or identity. i was brainwashed with religion that told me to suppress my feelings. i wanted love and was raised to numb that desire. i was discouraged from creating my own path. i thought i had finally escaped this place of hell two years ago. i had gotten a degree and what was seemingly a dream job. i was finally free to explore my interests but my peers were already light years ahead of me because theyd never had to overcome the same obstacles. i was going to travel this year. traveling has given me freedom unlike anything ive ever experienced. but then covid19 left me without ability to return to my job and my freedom was shortlived. i am back in hell now. i am constantly being reminded of my failures and the societal expectations of my silence and obedience. i am looking forward to leaving this handmaid's tale.

 

[TowerUpright]

My heart goes out to you, more than you know.

In my youth, I would have loved to have met you. I never felt like I could be with someone who had great love to give, someone I could have fun with things that we both loved to do. After a series of awful, bordering on abuse relationships, I settled with someone unlike me in so many ways. And I have regretted it every day for decades. I'm tearing up reading your post.

What ever you choose to do, I understand. But I must add that there are other guys out there with similar feelings and concerns.

I hope you are at peace, regardless of your choice.

 

[Desideratum]

Dear future husband

I am so sorry I never got to meet you. My name is FireFox and I catched the bus at 24 years old . I died alone in a tent in the woods using a toxic gas. I wore my favourite dress with cherries and passed away peacefully.

I used to be happy and wanted adventure. I wanted to make the world a better place and I had so many ideas . I wanted a career in diplomatic service or be a lawyer . My interests were in politics. Whenever there was an election I would stay up all night watching the results.
I attended the women's march against Donald trump in 2017 and marched against tuition fees.
As well as politics I loved watching sci fi programs , going to museums and parks. I hate clubs and bars.

I wanted to visit icleand

I was sucidal for years mainly because I saw my life as a failure . I lived all these years and had nothing to show for it. I never had a job, never been traveling on my own, I felt so lost after graduating university. In the UK a law degree does not make you a lawyer and it is extremely difficult to qualify. I just lost interest in my degree.

Seeing people I went to school with having careers and relationships I felt like a loser.

I went to a church party during the Christmas holidays and one of the mothers of girl I went to school with asked what I was doing. Her children were at university. I couldn't answer. It was so humiliating. When my nosey relatives phone my grandmother they ask what I have been doing lately and my nan struggles to answer. Being unemployed I felt like a burden on my family as well as an embrassment

I never had a boyfriend. I had so much love to give but no one seemed to be interested. Being single made me feel undesirable and unwanted. Seeing couples happy broke me as I was being reminded of what I dont have and always wanted

Seeding how awful my life turned out to be I didn't want to live to see the next 10 years so I ended it all . Sucide for me was all about control . I couldn't control how lived but I felt so much control when I chose I die

I didn't belong in this world it is really no ones fault.

The hours before my death I did think of you. Wondering what future we could have had together. Never knowing your name , never finding you , never holding you all these things did upset me .

The only thing that gave me comfort in the hours before my death was knowing I would have been a loving and affectionate wife towards you . If we did marry I would have loved hearing about your day at work, I would have made sure we did fun and crazy stuff together like canoeing in the Norwegian fjords, visiting Snowdonia in Wales or visit area 51 or some ufo convention . More importantly if you were sad I would have comforted you through your pain

Being single for a long time the desire for a loving relationship grows as the years go by . It becomes harder to deal with .

Future husband wherever you are enjoy your life . Listen to your friends or family if they are sucidal . Nobody listened to me . They all said I was going to be fine .

Love
FireFox

As I female, you can easily find a partner. If you went on a dating ap within 10 minutes you would have tons of likes. Try it if you don't believe me. I think maybe you can't find someone who you yourself fund attractive and worthy and that's ok too.

 

[lovehate22]

dear firefox

this letter was beautiful, any man would be lucky to have you as their better half :)