Let’s compare notes on failed attempts

[aloneintheworld]

Thought it could be helpful if we could compare notes on suicide attempts we had, what the method was, why we think it didn't work, and what happened afterwards.
I'll go first I overdosed on Tylenol and Advil in middle school it wasn't a large OD only about 20 pills and I got a stomach ache and didn't tell anyone not sure if I suffered any long term damage but I do have health issues now.
Another attempt I had was hanging myself in the closet almost 10 years ago. I had used a twin size bed sheet rolled up as a rope. The closet was very short maybe 2.5-3 feet high so I think that mixed with the factors that I was found 15 minutes after and I didn't have access to internet to know how to properly situate my body to hang but I did eventually knock out is why it failed. Also since I kept not wanting to put weight on my neck since I felt more pain when I did and the rolled up sheet didn't tighten a lot I was found without turning blue. Since this type of attempt doesn't go unnoticed after being found especially when you're still a minor I was in an ambulance to the hospital. Then a bad experience in the psych hospital and other mental health help after that never seemed to really help. The permanent effects from this attempt that were noticeable was significant increase in brain fog and neck spinal pain.

 

[Jean4]

I overdosed a few months back. Would have worked. Except I forgot my super was scheduled to come in to fix things (I am prone to impulsive CTB.) He called an ambulance and off to psych I went.

 

[aloneintheworld]

I overdosed a few months back. Would have worked. Except I forgot my super was scheduled to come in to fix things (I am prone to impulsive CTB.) He called an ambulance and off to psych I went.

What did you overdose on? I am prone to impulsively want to kill myself too. I always try to avoid the impulsivity and sleep on it though but damn it is so difficult sometimes

 

[Jean4]

What did you overdose on? I am prone to impulsively want to kill myself too. I always tryavoid the impulsivity and sleep on it though but damn it is so difficult sometimes

I have Respiratory failure with Hypoxia. My psych, asthma and COPD meds. It may not work for others, but it will work for me.

 

[nihilist_fool]

The same thing happened to me in my first year of secondary school. I OD'd on a bunch of random OTC pills and vodka and woke up the next day with a very bad stomach and headache. My intent was serious, but I had no idea what I was doing. If I really had taken enough I would have either lived with permanent organ damage or died after days of pain.

The second time I was 15 or so and I ordered a kilo of bitter almonds (Hy-C precursor). My parents who largely ignored the things I did decided to check my mail for some reason that day. My father had a clue on what it was and I never got a chance to eat them. I consider myself unlucky.

If I really wanted to I could probably off myself right now. But I'm older now and higher functioning. I'd have to worry about how to communicate my goodbyes to my partner, friends, and family. If there really is no reasonable plan of action for managing my chronic mental illnesses to a tolerable degree.

My biggest fear is winding up in a psych ward like you have. They can save your life in the now, sure, but they do nothing for or make the long term worse. A failed attempt that sacrifices some of my physical or mental functioning would be awful as well. All I can do is try to think about things "rationally" and make sure anything I do has a well thought out plan and reason behind it.