Discussion Leaving people behind

[Alecsa]

A back story: my ex cheated on me and it's been the cherry on top of my shit life. I can't say it's the reason why i want to ctb but it's my major trigger atm.

My ex has always been scared of how i have times i strongly desire to ctb and says would blame himself etc. I don't want that for him. I have so many reasons to ctb.

I want him to be happy i figured maybe if I did ctb now, his new lover could help him with the "trauma" he claims he would have. I figured the grieving process might cause them to grow closer. Would i cause them to split? Idk.

Am I over thinking things? I just really want to ctb and i think it's unfair i still have to worry for others.

Any input would be much appreciated. Thank you.

 

[_milo]

I've always felt if someone cheated on their partner they musn't not feel the way about them that they say they do. Not to say your individual doesn't, but it's how I've always seen it. On another note, in such a time of crisis that you would consider death, the feelings of said person who cheated on you shouldn't matter, only your own. But what do I know?