I'm a bit worried about leaving them.
My Mum has had her fair share of mental health problems and trauma.
She was sectioned for 5 years when I was 16. Not the first time she was sectioned, but the first that was over a few weeks.
Now, her mental health is completely under control, she has no therapy and I'm not sure if she is still on her meds.
I know she has been suicidal before, because when she was in her early twenties she got stopped at the Clifton Suspicion Bridge.
I got stopped on that bridge when I was 21.
I'm not sure if my death will send her off the deep end again.
My Dad (actually my step dad but I call him Dad) he has had depression since he was a teenager, had to go onto antidepressants when my Mum was sectioned, and his mental health is now under control.
My sister will be extremely pissed off with me. When we have talked about suicide before, she has called me selfish and how can I do that to them ect. I can't remember exactly what she said as I was around 18.
My sisters boyfriend, I'm not exactly sure how he will react.
These 4 people have known about my suicidal thoughts/urges before, a few years back and was extremely worried about me.
They don't know anything about my suicidal thoughts/urges now and think I'm completely fine.
They will never see it coming.