f1lth
fleabag
- Jul 9, 2023
- 60
Im learning how to drive fairly late, as i stupidly thought I'd be dead years ago and wouldn't actually be old enough to drive yet. Now im learning to drive so i can drive to a wooded area, im not sure which one yet but itll be easy to choose as theres a lot around here and hang myself there. It's kind of silly, i could probably find a suitable place that i could get to by bus, but i kind of want to be able to drive before i go. Plus, if im driving i can probably find a more private spot. Ive talked about my guilt before, but yet again it seeps in and eats me alive. I know people will see me learning how to drive and think that means im doing good and they may not expect this at all, much less that i learned to drive to end it. Who knows though, ive also been having a lot of panic attacks recently and it makes learning how to drive harder, so i may have to bus anyways. Kinda funny to catch the bus to catch the bus.
