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Sk1rtd4b

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May 13, 2024
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I plan to CTB sometime in July and I have no motivation to go out and try things I used to always wanted to do or just try new things in general. At this point I'm just surviving day by day waiting for the day I leave for good. I don't see a point in experiencing these things if all of those memories and experiences are just going to disappear in one night. Anyone feel similar?
 
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Mi Mi

No One Special
Mar 18, 2024
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I plan to CTB sometime in July and I have no motivation to go out and try things I used to always wanted to do or just try new things in general. At this point I'm just surviving day by day waiting for the day I leave for good. I don't see a point in experiencing these things if all of those memories and experiences are just going to disappear in one night. Anyone feel similar?
Kinda
I went to see a movie and while there
I just couldn't enjoy it
I didn't enjoy my food
I was annoyed with the people
That bought seats in my row cs
You have to pick your seats so I
Know they saw it
I just kept thinking I hope this works
So I get how you feel
I suppose it's kinda a symptom that comes when you're just over it
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
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Same. I've been like that since I decided to die and joined this site. Just surviving my days and coming up with excuses to extend my d. date. I don't know why I keep torturing myself further by staying.
 
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сет паслен

суицид
May 16, 2024
148
I plan to CTB sometime in July and I have no motivation to go out and try things I used to always wanted to do or just try new things in general. At this point I'm just surviving day by day waiting for the day I leave for good. I don't see a point in experiencing these things if all of those memories and experiences are just going to disappear in one night. Anyone feel similar?
Always thought id do something crazy and risky before I die, like bungee off the empire state building or something, even tho heights terrify me, but thought, oh well if the cord snaps and I go plunging to my death, then a few steps saved, but now just wanna hole up in my space and have some fun here til the day comes. But maybe get drunk a few times til then, at least.
 
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