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No Brain No Pain
- Jun 29, 2020
- 114
Obviously I know I'm the one who ultimately has to make this decision but I'm looking for some advice. I have a physical condition which has basically reduced me to a couch potato. I'm unable to work, travel, socialize, or do much of anything. All I can do is sit at home (my parent's) and go to doctors appt after doctors appt, trying to fix me but none of them can (this has been going on for years, I've been to triple digit appts and we've spent thousands of dollars with no improvement whatsoever). I no longer believe I can be helped and see no reason to continue life like this (my 91 year old grandma has more mobility and independence than me).
Here is my problem. I want my friends and family to know that there is nothing they could have done differently to help me, and make sure that they feel no guilt. I have a letter typed up that basically explains what I've been going through and the reason for my decision. However I keep going back and forth between either:
a. Leaving it printed by my side to be discovered upon finding my body or
b. Distributing via Facebook by using the "Friends except" option to send it only to my close friends and family (I would just set it up then use an autoclicker to post it some hours after my death.
I know there is a stigma attached to suicide and I don't know which of these methods would make it easier on my family and friends. The first option allows for my immediate family to decide what information they want to distribute but may have others questioning what really happened when I want them to know my parents were amazing and did everything they could for me. The second option allows the full story to get out there to everyone I want, but will probably let the story spread further than intended (even if I request that it doesn't) and may put my parents / family in the spotlight and make it harder for them to deal with it.
Any advice on this? I have everything else ready to go and this is the last thing weighing on mind.
Here is my problem. I want my friends and family to know that there is nothing they could have done differently to help me, and make sure that they feel no guilt. I have a letter typed up that basically explains what I've been going through and the reason for my decision. However I keep going back and forth between either:
a. Leaving it printed by my side to be discovered upon finding my body or
b. Distributing via Facebook by using the "Friends except" option to send it only to my close friends and family (I would just set it up then use an autoclicker to post it some hours after my death.
I know there is a stigma attached to suicide and I don't know which of these methods would make it easier on my family and friends. The first option allows for my immediate family to decide what information they want to distribute but may have others questioning what really happened when I want them to know my parents were amazing and did everything they could for me. The second option allows the full story to get out there to everyone I want, but will probably let the story spread further than intended (even if I request that it doesn't) and may put my parents / family in the spotlight and make it harder for them to deal with it.
Any advice on this? I have everything else ready to go and this is the last thing weighing on mind.