Last day(s)

[Ramirez]

Im on my last day hopefully. fingers cross. I know Ive been a drunk angry asshole on this forum lately but im just interested. anyone living their last days? what do you do with your time? I cleaned my apartment and set everything up. now im just playing video games and being drunk. I still have to shave and bring out the garbage. what do you do?

 

[LastWhisper]

I'm (hopefully) living my last days too. I take out some garbage (there is still a lot to), eating up all the food I have, burned photo albums, deleting all my accounts and emails in the web. Now I'm almost 24/7 on this forum, drinking, sometimes playing some games and awaiting for a few things to finally finish this all.

 

[VariousSolutions]

Same Here. Cleaning and playing Video Games. Nothing Special to do. I think i have done enuff Special Shit in my life. I'm just trying to have a few calm days and Pass away.

Sorry fror Bad English

 

[Marauder]

Apart from above mentioned sleeping a lot, lying in bathtub and watching porn.

 

[ecmnesia]

hopefully this will be my last week. apart from cleaning my computer, erasing social media and emails, i mostly spend my time reading manga and listening to my favorite albums.

i will write the letter on the day before and all that's left is finding a place to cbt, since the first option blew up.

i don't want to do anything that can possibly remind me of the past and dissuade me from cbt. but i intent to eat tons of bacon and pasta before I go.


since we are all on the same boat, how are you guys feeling? i guess I am somewhat scared, but the thought of catching the bus soon soothes me.

 

[Ramirez]

im a little scared but also relieved at the same time sad aswell.
thank you anyone replying to this it really means alot to me!

 

[Hazelnut]

Same here, friends... I will not see the next Monday.
I just need to empty what's left in my apartment (furniture, food...), delete my last accounts / emails, and chose a new place to CTB because of an unexpected event.
I'm currently spending my last days eating, sleeping and playing video games...
It feels weird.

 

[Marauder]

I am not eating at all because I think that the less I eat the weaker my body will be = lower probability of survival. But my method is gun so it almost doesnt matter.

 

[LastWhisper]

since we are all on the same boat, how are you guys feeling? i guess I am somewhat scared, but the thought of catching the bus soon soothes me.

I'm feel a lot free now, I stopped caring about anything due to of my upcoming bus.

 

[death137]

This week seems my last. I've been erasing some things from my phone and other devices. I already put most of my clothes into order. I will clean myself and also some rooms. I plan to visit a nearby church or the cathedral my father was buried. And as usual listening to music, using internet, sleeping and talking to myself.

im a little scared but also relieved at the same time sad aswell.
thank you anyone replying to this it really means alot to me!

I'm also feeling mixed emotions (happy, sad, relief, terror).

 

[Despairing]

I wish you peace whatever you do.

 

[walktothewater]

I haven't picked a date or decided a method yet but I do know that I am not going to bother tidying up my affairs (closing internet accounts and the like), my family have caused me to become suicidal, they can deal with the after effects. It will be some small payback for the disgusting fashion in which they have treated me.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

I haven't picked a date or decided a method yet but I do know that I am not going to bother tidying up my affairs (closing internet accounts and the like), my family have caused me to become suicidal, they can deal with the after effects. It will be some small payback for the disgusting fashion in which they have treated me.

Do you mean that you want your family to discover that you have been a member of this site and to read your posts?
Do you mind sharing how they've caused you to want to ctb?

 

[walktothewater]

Do you mean that you want your family to discover that you have been a member of this site and to read your posts?

Interesting idea, that didn't occur to me. I didn't specifically mean that, I meant more that I'm not going to any effort to make life easier for them. They can clean up my affairs if they want, or not, and do whatever they wish with my possessions. It won't be my concern, I'll be dead. I'm certainly not going to any effort to make life easy for them.

Do you mind sharing how they've caused you to want to ctb?

Made me homeless, had me arrested, other things including an assault (by my sister). Triggered a recent hospitalisation.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

[QUOTE="walktothewater, post: 970262, member: 23544"
Made me homeless, had me arrested, other things including an assault (by my sister). Triggered a recent hospitalisation.
[/QUOTE]

How did they MAKE you homeless?

How did they have you arrested? You can't be arrested if you have done nothing that is illegal.

Why did she assault you?

The recent hospitalisation.... did someone assault/hurt you?

 

[Nimbus]

hopefully this will be my last week. apart from cleaning my computer, erasing social media and emails, i mostly spend my time reading manga and listening to my favorite albums.

i will write the letter on the day before and all that's left is finding a place to cbt, since the first option blew up.

i don't want to do anything that can possibly remind me of the past and dissuade me from cbt. but i intent to eat tons of bacon and pasta before I go.


since we are all on the same boat, how are you guys feeling? i guess I am somewhat scared, but the thought of catching the bus soon soothes me.

Two thumbs up for the bacon and pasta

 

[walktothewater]

How did they MAKE you homeless?

How did they have you arrested? You can't be arrested if you have done nothing that is illegal.

Why did she assault you?

The recent hospitalisation.... did someone assault/hurt you?

I don't wish to continue with this discussion right now. Thanks.

 

[walktothewater]

I think it's about time you took some responsibility for your own actions, instead of blaming others!

I think it's about time you stopped poking your nose into other people's business.

 

[Ramirez]

Everyone is cleaning their apartments up. That's the best part of it, not having to do that. All this is an illusion anyway, no one is really there after you go.

you are right. its not gonna matter after we are dead. but it makes me feel better right now tbh. just not having a dirty home idk. i grew up in a clean kinda home and id like to leave in one. but i do understand that it doesnt matter as soon as im gone.

 

[reticen]

lol You posted on a public forum. All I did was ask questions about what you posted. I honestly think you should GROW UP and stop blaming others for your own failings. Just my opinion...


HILARIOUS!!  How old are you ffs?

And the Queen B award goes to...

 

[walktothewater]

lol You posted on a public forum. All I did was ask questions about what you posted. I honestly think you should GROW UP and stop blaming others for your own failings. Just my opinion...


HILARIOUS!!  How old are you ffs?

Go away.

 

[ecmnesia]

with all due respect, and I know rhat's not the place for this discussion, it's really rude and insensitive to go out pointing fingers to others without deeply understanding what they've been through. plus, everyone has the right to back out of a conversation that makes them uncomfortable, it might be that this is a pretty sensitive topic, it might be because of something else, but honestly, it's not our business.

anyway I am sorry for disrupting the intention of the thread. but i felt the need to say that.

 

[RedRed]

This thread is supposed to be a positive one, people. Phil122 asked an innocent question, let's just answer it without being nosy or rude please. Stop with the negativity.

To answer the question though, I'll also be cleaning my room! And prepare my letters :')

 

[ecmnesia]

do you guys also have second thoughts about going through with it? or is it just me?

 

[Ramirez]

do you guys also have second thoughts about going through with it? or is it just me?

I dont have a choice at this point really. i didnt pay rent or anything and i running outta money for food. i put myself in this situation on purpose otherwise i woudnt be able to go throught with it...

 

[RedRed]

do you guys also have second thoughts about going through with it? or is it just me?

Not just u ahahaha. I'm a bit of a coward u see ^^;

 

[Lordsudbury]

I'm not sure where I stand as far as my end date. But until then I live my days as usual, following my workout routines and eat the same shit and hang out, watch tv, deal with the depression and mental trauma and all that. I don't think life should be any different before the end day.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

I agree, I can only apologise to walktothewater for my unacceptable behaviour.

I have deleted the offending posts.

 

[whywere]

My wish for you is a peaceful journey where ever that might be or where it might take you. All the best and caring and love to you my global family member! Walter

 

[LastWhisper]

do you guys also have second thoughts about going through with it? or is it just me?

Well, yeah. And it can even happen, but I already went through some points of no return, so I don't think I can just cancel that.