Littlewittlelight

Littlewittlelight

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Sep 3, 2022
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Last date for college is 20 some guy told me and he was even rude while telling I told him never to message me again. I don't want to go out it will be too much. I went a couple times and they would make me do so many things for no reason when it is a fucked college. I can't even say I am tired or lazy or anything that's too much because it doesn't make sense for a human to say that I know how they would react. They won't extend the date and now I really feel strange that this guy always acted rude while giving me information when I was fairly nice to him and he even did stupid things with me. I feel I am so vulnerable and my face attracts people who just keep making comments on me or think they can take out their anger in me. I am hurt and I don't even talk to anyone there but this guy too I always know that soon as I get friendly with someone they think they can and should abuse me like it's their birth right. I told him to never message me and blocked him I don't feel guilty I feel bad but I am also thinking about how these people would react or say to me if we met again because it is possible if I didn't do in next two months then I am going. I am thinking of being upfront and say that you were rude to me and keep it to yourself. I didn't do anything now just leave me alone you if he still does something I have to say something like I don't want to talk leave me alone you don't deserve an answer go to someone else. I am done.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Some people really are so cruel. Often the way that many people behave towards others just makes me want to leave this world even more. I'm sorry that you suffer.
 
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Littlewittlelight

Littlewittlelight

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Sep 3, 2022
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Some people really are so cruel. Often the way that many people behave towards others just makes me want to leave this world even more. I'm sorry that you suffer.
Yeah I think and I am pretty much done with human interaction it's my young brain and body that just takes over me but I think I am so much more done than an average person my age because I don't do normal stuff or want it on a daily. It has become more like my monthly. I am just wishing it all dies all that is left of these desires yeah my young soul talks itself into normal things normal young adults want.
 

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