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Bigrab
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- Feb 10, 2020
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I clicked Life-long depression (or other mental conditions)
I have a pretty vast range of debilitating mental health conditions. Each day is often such a struggle and chore to get through. I'd also tick the family box too, I have no blood family left in my life. My parents, brother, uncle and aunties, my brothers kids and wife, even my daughter who's birthday it is today, she's 5 today, I have been without them fir 3 and a half years now. Although it was the right thing separating from abusive parents its still upsetting that because of them I lost everything in the process, that's narcissists for you. Sometime I blame myself for everything that happened.
I really don't like living with myself and all my different parts, I find myself disgusting, worthless, and a failure who can't achieve anything anymore. I'm a drain on society and if I was an animal I think I would be put down. I'm a good person deep down but I have badness and I think I have been messed up mentally since a very young age.
For me the only thing that keeps me here is my fiancé, I love her so much. I don't know anymore why she still loves me the way she dose. She is the most perfect person I have ever come across and I don't deserve her love.
wow that went downhill fast
this is my first post to this site so please be nice to me
I have a pretty vast range of debilitating mental health conditions. Each day is often such a struggle and chore to get through. I'd also tick the family box too, I have no blood family left in my life. My parents, brother, uncle and aunties, my brothers kids and wife, even my daughter who's birthday it is today, she's 5 today, I have been without them fir 3 and a half years now. Although it was the right thing separating from abusive parents its still upsetting that because of them I lost everything in the process, that's narcissists for you. Sometime I blame myself for everything that happened.
I really don't like living with myself and all my different parts, I find myself disgusting, worthless, and a failure who can't achieve anything anymore. I'm a drain on society and if I was an animal I think I would be put down. I'm a good person deep down but I have badness and I think I have been messed up mentally since a very young age.
For me the only thing that keeps me here is my fiancé, I love her so much. I don't know anymore why she still loves me the way she dose. She is the most perfect person I have ever come across and I don't deserve her love.
wow that went downhill fast
this is my first post to this site so please be nice to me