first off, i wanna preface that i do not understand most acronyms, lingo, or jargon of this site, so some help with that is needed.
ello, been feelin an utter lack of purpose lately, other than keepin plants n suicidal friends alive. the only reason i wake up in the mornin is me plants (lovely little wood-sorrels, and an echeveria) n bf, but other than that i wake up n do next to nothin other than watch yt vids, play a few games, n chip away at music-makin. life's become a chore, something i be obligated to do, and i see no point in continuing if all i'm doin is disappointin me parents, barely keepin plants alive, and contributin next to nothin in society (all i do to "contribute" is make music). i've gotten very close to suicide before, what with wantin to do it new-years of this year, tyin a noose at one point and then givin up, and the most recent attempt that was stopped by me brother havin an off-day at work and contactin me mum about a concernin discord message i sent him.
the only thing keepin me alive is me survival instinct n low pain tolerance, in need of lowerin those.
i don't want to get better, i just want to die. i be a stain on society, just a useless consumer of finite resources.
i am not quick to respond, so please ask me multiple questions in one response, so i can answer all of them in the few times i'll visit this site.
ello, been feelin an utter lack of purpose lately, other than keepin plants n suicidal friends alive. the only reason i wake up in the mornin is me plants (lovely little wood-sorrels, and an echeveria) n bf, but other than that i wake up n do next to nothin other than watch yt vids, play a few games, n chip away at music-makin. life's become a chore, something i be obligated to do, and i see no point in continuing if all i'm doin is disappointin me parents, barely keepin plants alive, and contributin next to nothin in society (all i do to "contribute" is make music). i've gotten very close to suicide before, what with wantin to do it new-years of this year, tyin a noose at one point and then givin up, and the most recent attempt that was stopped by me brother havin an off-day at work and contactin me mum about a concernin discord message i sent him.
the only thing keepin me alive is me survival instinct n low pain tolerance, in need of lowerin those.
i don't want to get better, i just want to die. i be a stain on society, just a useless consumer of finite resources.
i am not quick to respond, so please ask me multiple questions in one response, so i can answer all of them in the few times i'll visit this site.
