Knowing I can't be loved

[lotus.dead]

waking up everyday realizing im hard to love messes me up so much. everyday I'm reminded of all the people who left me because i was too overwhelming to be with. I've been avoiding everyone because i don't want to be attached anymore, knowing damn well they'll just leave. i rlly give up. i cant be loved.

i really hope ctb works and brings me to heaven. i want to be happy for once.

 

[interna]

feeling this exact same way
im sorry