Killing myself via drowning

[itsfinalyover]

How I am dying basically just drowning a town near me toaday soon.


The thing I regret though is not doing this earlier as I always had these feelings for a while since I was 14 ish, I'm 22 now. Honestly delaying it imo wasn't right and coping via blasting music in my ears, gambling my student finance money over £1000+ on penny stocks and cryptocurrency, buying random shit when I had a job working in a factory, porn addiction etc as methods to cope wasn't great or in any way healthy.

Honestly I gave up a while back, I guess seeing how blurry my eyesight was during my computer science lecture. The tinnitus I have and the constant headaches I have, my declining eyesight aswell. And knowing that the future for me is grinding a job I don't want to do and the only upside is temporary stimulation online or through buying material things whilst my body slowly rots isn't great. I already did that for 6 months working in a factory with many people who disliked me.

I guess having little agency in life leads to this. I don't want to work in the nhs and I don't really want to live in general.

In general though I never really wanted to live for a while back all the time the feeling of nothingness was better than living.

Overall I just want to end it and leave it at that or do a do over being born in China in the 2010s-2020s if reincarnation is real.

I hope my younger brother looses weight, I hope my youngest brother continues to do what he is doing right now and I hope my mother doesn't change too much.

 

[ma0]

Please make sure the car you are jumping into is fast enough. If you are hit at 20mph, there is a 90% chance you will sustain serious injuries, 50% at 30mph. You may also traumatize people, so keep that in mind.

Still, I hope you find the peace and happiness you're looking for.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

This is a completely unethical method, IMO.

You're going to traumatize at least one person [the driver], possibly many depending on how many witness this. And you can also easily injure or kill multiple innocent people.

 

[coffeebeany]

How I am dying basically just getting ran over by a car in a town near me toaday soon.

I was thinking either getting hit by a car or drowning but getting hit by a car seems better than gasping for air and dying slowly. Though imo drowning is more lethal.

The thing I regret though is not doing this earlier as I always had these feelings for a while since I was 14 ish, I'm 22 now. Honestly delaying it imo wasn't right and coping via blasting music in my ears, gambling my student finance money over £1000+ on penny stocks and cryptocurrency, buying random shit when I had a job working in a factory, porn addiction etc as methods to cope wasn't great or in any way healthy.

Honestly I gave up a while back, I guess seeing how blurry my eyesight was during my computer science lecture. The tinnitus I have and the constant headaches I have, my declining eyesight aswell. And knowing that the future for me is grinding a job I don't want to do and the only upside is temporary stimulation online or through buying material things whilst my body slowly rots isn't great. I already did that for 6 months working in a factory with many people who disliked me.

I guess having little agency in life leads to this. I don't want to work in the nhs and I don't really want to live in general.

In general though I never really wanted to live for a while back all the time the feeling of nothingness was better than living.

Overall I just want to end it and leave it at that or do a do over being born in China in the 2010s-2020s if reincarnation is real.

I hope my younger brother looses weight, I hope my youngest brother continues to do what he is doing right now and I hope my mother doesn't change too much.

I am so sorry you are in so much pain. This sounds so distressing and I know exactly how you are feeling. I ve also had those feeling from the age of 10 (I am 30 now). Having said this, I noticed that you just joined this community today - so welcome. I m not pro life or anything but are you sure your plan is not impulsive or rushed? Jumping into a car is not a safe way to ctb. It could leave you severely injured or disabled let alone the trauma you and the driver would suffer. I would encourage you to read some threads about safer methods in this forum. Please, please reconsider this idea for now. I mean absolutely not disrespect, I know too well how you are feeling. You can always dm me if you want to talk.

 

[itsfinalyover]

This is a completely unethical method, IMO.

You're going to traumatize at least one person [the driver], possibly many depending on how many witness this. And you can also easily injure or kill multiple innocent people.

Ah damn, I'll try to drowning then., or overdosing on pills though idk if that will do much.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Why do want to traumatize an innocent driver?

I'm sorry you're so desperate. There're better methods.

 

[itsfinalyover]

Why do want to traumatize an innocent driver?

I'm sorry you're so desperate. There're better methods.

Never really thought about that. I honestly just wanted a death that was quick. I'll just try downing or something. I was really just planing on doing it today.

 

[coffeebeany]

Ah damn, I'll try to drowning then., or overdosing on pills though idk if that will do much.

Please take a look at the Ressource Compilation to make an informed decision. Over the counter pills probably won't work. Drowning is not as easy as one might think. Doing something on an impulse or unprepared often leads to failure or may harm you. Look at the Non-methods that should not be attempted-thread. Please search the forum for more information if you are sure you want to ctb.

 

[soonnotkoei]

Never really thought about that. I honestly just wanted a death that was quick. I'll just try downing or something. I was really just planing on doing it today.

just make sure you research your method well. dont act in a rush or by impulse. other than that, wishing you peace whatever you choose.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

I keep seeing things that suggest that CO is a very sleepy and peaceful death...

"I Hope I Don't Kill Top Gun": Tom Cruise & Jamie Foxx Were Falling Asleep While Filming 2004 Oscar-Winning Thriller Because Of One Car Blunder

The two actors had a close call.

screenrant.com

3 US Marines died of carbon monoxide poisoning in a car. Vehicle experts explain how that can happen

The deaths of three U.S. Marines who suffered carbon monoxide poisoning in a parked car at a North Carolina gas station have raised questions about how the situation could happen outdoors.

apnews.com

It's currently my method of choice.

 

[human909]

I don't think you should do this method since you would traumatize the driver but I really hope you find peace soon.

 

[NonEssential]

I've had similar thoughts, but with trains. I don't think I'll be doing that method, because I don't want to traumatize the people on it.

 

[maniac116]

I hope you reconsider!
I believe we have the right to take our own lives but we have NO right to involve other innocent people. Think of what the person who hits you has to live with!
For the rest of their lives they'll live with the fact that they "killed you". Whether their fault or not, they must live with that trauma. For some of us its that trauma that brings us to this website.
Please reconsider!!

 

[itsfinalyover]

I hope you reconsider!
I believe we have the right to take our own lives but we have NO right to involve other innocent people. Think of what the person who hits you has to live with!
For the rest of their lives they'll live with the fact that they "killed you". Whether their fault or not, they must live with that trauma. For some of us its that trauma that brings us to this website.
Please reconsider!!

I'm gonna try dying via drowning instead.

 

[L'absent]

Blaming someone who attempts suicide by throwing themselves in front of a car or involving others is not only cruel but also a demonstration of collective ignorance. It's easier to point fingers at someone overwhelmed by despair than to address the structural and social causes that drove them to that point. Turning a victim into a culprit avoids confronting the deeper failures of a broken society. When someone accuses a person who attempts suicide of traumatizing others, they ignore the fact that this individual was already destroyed by their own pain. Do you really think that someone throws themselves under a car out of selfishness? No, they do it because society has failed to provide alternatives. If there were a peaceful, safe, and accessible method, these people would not end up involving others. And perhaps, if they lived in a social system that fought despair instead of fostering it, they wouldn't have reached the point of suicide. Take concrete historical examples: during the Great Depression of the 1930s, suicide rates in the United States reached unprecedented levels. This wasn't an individual problem but a systemic crisis: widespread poverty, unemployment, and the collapse of social networks. Similarly, in India, farmer suicides are a plague linked to debt, the lack of state support, and political indifference. Even today, in Japan, "karoshi suicide" (death from overwork) symbolizes a society that sacrifices human lives on the altar of productivity. These are not individual acts; they are collective cries born from systemic failures. Yet, when a desperate person involves others in their suicide, society's response is to judge. There is talk of the "trauma" for those who witness or are affected, but the real issue is not addressed: why did no one act before this person reached that point? Why is there concern for collateral victims and not for the suffering that led to the act? Isn't it an even greater trauma to live in a world that abandons those who suffer? The idea that a suicidal person should die in silence to not "disturb" others is the pinnacle of hypocrisy. Society prefers those in despair to end their lives in the shadows, so it doesn't have to confront the problem. But history teaches us that change never comes without discomfort. Revolutions that have transformed the world—from the French Revolution to the Civil Rights movements—have always caused innocent victims. Not because it's right, but because it's necessary. When pain becomes visible, when discomfort shakes the hypocritical calm of a society, then something moves. Public suicide, as tragic as it is, becomes an act of denunciation. It is not an act of selfishness but a symptom of a system that ignores suffering until it reaches the point of no return. Blaming the suicidal is the modern equivalent of burning heretics at the stake: it serves only to maintain the illusion that the problem lies with the individual, not the system. But if we want to prevent people from choosing such extreme actions, we must radically change the way society addresses pain and despair. Higher barriers on bridges or cameras monitoring "at-risk" places won't solve the problem. What is needed is support, listening, and dignity. Peaceful methods must exist for those who no longer wish to live, and a social system must do everything to prevent them from reaching that point. The real blame does not lie with those who throw themselves in front of a car. The real blame lies with those who build a society that makes people desire death more than life.

 

[NonEssential]

Well at the end of the day if a vehicle driver involuntarily kills someone they're going to live with lifelong trauma, no matter who you place the blame on. Not saying anyone really desperate enough to just die is some terrible monster for using that method though.

 

[L'absent]

The trauma experienced by the driver is undoubtedly real and painful, but it is a side effect of a much larger tragedy, not the root of the problem. Focusing solely on that trauma risks overshadowing the despair that drove the suicidal person to choose that method. No one is saying that the suicidal person is a monster, but placing blame on someone already enduring unbearable suffering is unjust. The point is that, if safe and dignified alternatives existed, these tragedies wouldn't involve others. The real responsibility lies with a system that ignores pain until it becomes impossible to overlook.

 

[NonEssential]

The real responsibility lies with a system that ignores pain until it becomes impossible to overlook.

Fair enough.

 

[coffeebeany]

How I am dying basically just drowning a town near me toaday soon.

Like I said. Make sure to look the method up in the Ressource Compilation. If it doesn't work out for you tonight don't feel ashamed to come back here. We are here for you.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Blaming someone who attempts suicide by throwing themselves in front of a car or involving others is not only cruel but also a demonstration of collective ignorance. It's easier to point fingers at someone overwhelmed by despair than to address the structural and social causes that drove them to that point. Turning a victim into a culprit avoids confronting the deeper failures of a broken society. When someone accuses a person who attempts suicide of traumatizing others, they ignore the fact that this individual was already destroyed by their own pain. Do you really think that someone throws themselves under a car out of selfishness? No, they do it because society has failed to provide alternatives. If there were a peaceful, safe, and accessible method, these people would not end up involving others. And perhaps, if they lived in a social system that fought despair instead of fostering it, they wouldn't have reached the point of suicide. Take concrete historical examples: during the Great Depression of the 1930s, suicide rates in the United States reached unprecedented levels. This wasn't an individual problem but a systemic crisis: widespread poverty, unemployment, and the collapse of social networks. Similarly, in India, farmer suicides are a plague linked to debt, the lack of state support, and political indifference. Even today, in Japan, "karoshi suicide" (death from overwork) symbolizes a society that sacrifices human lives on the altar of productivity. These are not individual acts; they are collective cries born from systemic failures. Yet, when a desperate person involves others in their suicide, society's response is to judge. There is talk of the "trauma" for those who witness or are affected, but the real issue is not addressed: why did no one act before this person reached that point? Why is there concern for collateral victims and not for the suffering that led to the act? Isn't it an even greater trauma to live in a world that abandons those who suffer? The idea that a suicidal person should die in silence to not "disturb" others is the pinnacle of hypocrisy. Society prefers those in despair to end their lives in the shadows, so it doesn't have to confront the problem. But history teaches us that change never comes without discomfort. Revolutions that have transformed the world—from the French Revolution to the Civil Rights movements—have always caused innocent victims. Not because it's right, but because it's necessary. When pain becomes visible, when discomfort shakes the hypocritical calm of a society, then something moves. Public suicide, as tragic as it is, becomes an act of denunciation. It is not an act of selfishness but a symptom of a system that ignores suffering until it reaches the point of no return. Blaming the suicidal is the modern equivalent of burning heretics at the stake: it serves only to maintain the illusion that the problem lies with the individual, not the system. But if we want to prevent people from choosing such extreme actions, we must radically change the way society addresses pain and despair. Higher barriers on bridges or cameras monitoring "at-risk" places won't solve the problem. What is needed is support, listening, and dignity. Peaceful methods must exist for those who no longer wish to live, and a social system must do everything to prevent them from reaching that point. The real blame does not lie with those who throw themselves in front of a car. The real blame lies with those who build a society that makes people desire death more than life.

This!! I'm personally against somebody killing themselves via getting hit by a car due to it being risky and it potentially backfiring but I wouldn't be against it if it had a high chance of succeeding. The reason why people even have to resort to methods like this in the first place is because society has made euthanasia illegal. If euthanasia was legalised which it honestly should be as it should be our right to decide to peacefully end our lives whenever we wish to, people wouldn't ever be resorting to methods like this. I'm so sick and tired of this society and the way people treat suicide. It makes me loathe life far more and makes me want to escape this existence even more. You can't ever reason with these people as it's just impossible to.

 

[itsfinalyover]

Like I said. Make sure to look the method up in the Ressource Compilation. If it doesn't work out for you tonight don't feel ashamed to come back here. We are here for you.

Didn't work, I was seriously gonna do it today but I went to my university I wrote down my final note but I saw there was literally no body of water, there used to be a river but it all got drained. I was very disappointed as I really wanted to end it all then I built up the corage over the hours but there was nothing there. I'll try to do it tomorrow at a different place.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also don't wish to exist, I understand just wanting to be gone but anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the freedom you are searching for.

 

[coffeebeany]

Didn't work, I was seriously gonna do it today but I went to my university I wrote down my final note but I saw there was literally no body of water, there used to be a river but it all got drained. I was very disappointed as I really wanted to end it all then I built up the corage over the hours but there was nothing there. I'll try to do it tomorrow at a different place.

I see. This must have been disappointing and frustrating for you. How are you doing right now?

 

[maniac116]

Blaming someone who attempts suicide by throwing themselves in front of a car or involving others is not only cruel but also a demonstration of collective ignorance. It's easier to point fingers at someone overwhelmed by despair than to address the structural and social causes that drove them to that point. Turning a victim into a culprit avoids confronting the deeper failures of a broken society. When someone accuses a person who attempts suicide of traumatizing others, they ignore the fact that this individual was already destroyed by their own pain. Do you really think that someone throws themselves under a car out of selfishness? No, they do it because society has failed to provide alternatives. If there were a peaceful, safe, and accessible method, these people would not end up involving others. And perhaps, if they lived in a social system that fought despair instead of fostering it, they wouldn't have reached the point of suicide. Take concrete historical examples: during the Great Depression of the 1930s, suicide rates in the United States reached unprecedented levels. This wasn't an individual problem but a systemic crisis: widespread poverty, unemployment, and the collapse of social networks. Similarly, in India, farmer suicides are a plague linked to debt, the lack of state support, and political indifference. Even today, in Japan, "karoshi suicide" (death from overwork) symbolizes a society that sacrifices human lives on the altar of productivity. These are not individual acts; they are collective cries born from systemic failures. Yet, when a desperate person involves others in their suicide, society's response is to judge. There is talk of the "trauma" for those who witness or are affected, but the real issue is not addressed: why did no one act before this person reached that point? Why is there concern for collateral victims and not for the suffering that led to the act? Isn't it an even greater trauma to live in a world that abandons those who suffer? The idea that a suicidal person should die in silence to not "disturb" others is the pinnacle of hypocrisy. Society prefers those in despair to end their lives in the shadows, so it doesn't have to confront the problem. But history teaches us that change never comes without discomfort. Revolutions that have transformed the world—from the French Revolution to the Civil Rights movements—have always caused innocent victims. Not because it's right, but because it's necessary. When pain becomes visible, when discomfort shakes the hypocritical calm of a society, then something moves. Public suicide, as tragic as it is, becomes an act of denunciation. It is not an act of selfishness but a symptom of a system that ignores suffering until it reaches the point of no return. Blaming the suicidal is the modern equivalent of burning heretics at the stake: it serves only to maintain the illusion that the problem lies with the individual, not the system. But if we want to prevent people from choosing such extreme actions, we must radically change the way society addresses pain and despair. Higher barriers on bridges or cameras monitoring "at-risk" places won't solve the problem. What is needed is support, listening, and dignity. Peaceful methods must exist for those who no longer wish to live, and a social system must do everything to prevent them from reaching that point. The real blame does not lie with those who throw themselves in front of a car. The real blame lies with those who build a society that makes people desire death more than life.

That's really sad!! What an irresponsible crock.
Just because you have a bad life doesn't give a person the right to mess up other people's lives!
Couldn't disagree with you more.

 

[itsfinalyover]

I see. This must have been disappointing and frustrating for you. How are you doing right now?

Quite disappointing but it was also quite funny and anti climatic. If I knew it was going to end up like that I would have just gone to my placement for today and moved my suicide to another date. I will try again tomorrow.