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Bodydysmorphia
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- Jun 15, 2022
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Hello,
I am a 22 year old male from Germany who has been suffering from depression and bodydysmorphic disorder since his teen years. I've been to numerous therapists and trying several different medications but nothing has really helped me to become psychologically stable. I struggle with an inferiority complex which is why I am perceived as insecure by other persons. Also, I've been through bullying and toxic/manipulative "friendships" which have amplified my insecurities. Moreover, I belong to LGBT (gay).
My biggest struggle is my appearance/my looks. I have suffered a severe acne during puberty, which has left scars all over my body. I don't go swimming or generally take off my shirt even if it is summer. My whole back and chest as well as my upper arms are covered with scars, it goes all the way to my rectal area. I rarely have sexual interactions or go out for dates as I feel too ashamed for my body/looks.
Moreover, I hate my face and body type (really skinny and small/short for a guy), I just hate looking into the mirror. Thus I avoid social interactions, have just a few friends and spend most of the time laying in my bed. I fear of being rejected by others because of my appearance which is why I don't go partying or dating anymore.
I don't know it's all gotten to a point where I feel like I should just ctb as I don't feel that anyone will find me genuinely attractive. I don't know what do to anymore, just want to feel some inner peace...
I am a 22 year old male from Germany who has been suffering from depression and bodydysmorphic disorder since his teen years. I've been to numerous therapists and trying several different medications but nothing has really helped me to become psychologically stable. I struggle with an inferiority complex which is why I am perceived as insecure by other persons. Also, I've been through bullying and toxic/manipulative "friendships" which have amplified my insecurities. Moreover, I belong to LGBT (gay).
My biggest struggle is my appearance/my looks. I have suffered a severe acne during puberty, which has left scars all over my body. I don't go swimming or generally take off my shirt even if it is summer. My whole back and chest as well as my upper arms are covered with scars, it goes all the way to my rectal area. I rarely have sexual interactions or go out for dates as I feel too ashamed for my body/looks.
Moreover, I hate my face and body type (really skinny and small/short for a guy), I just hate looking into the mirror. Thus I avoid social interactions, have just a few friends and spend most of the time laying in my bed. I fear of being rejected by others because of my appearance which is why I don't go partying or dating anymore.
I don't know it's all gotten to a point where I feel like I should just ctb as I don't feel that anyone will find me genuinely attractive. I don't know what do to anymore, just want to feel some inner peace...