Really would you considered it life saving? 30mg? That's a small dose, can you restrain yourself from a higher dose?
How long have you been using it?
yes, absolutely life-saving. I am waking up without suicidal ideation for the first time in my adult life. I was in tears all day long, tortured morning to evening, before this Ketamine protocol. I told my family to say goodbye to me, I was pretty decided to die (I have my exit kit too at the ready...).
I don't personally have any desire to take a higher dose. However, I don't have that kind of personality. My addiction is shopping, I've realised it is also quite a serious addiction, but it isn't to any drug or drugs. I use weed edibles as medicine, and psilocybin and LSD, but am not addicted to any of them. I'd give them all up if I could be happy sober. I was sober for a day or two following starting this strict protocol which is really great. But because of some life stress at the moment, I stopped following it strictly and went to weed again. I will give it a try properly soon hopefully. It's because it tells you to give up weed to do it! Which I did for a day, and I was happy sober. It was quite amazing:
Saying that, I do love weed. The psilocybin and LSD I would happily give up.
Ketamine is something you would need to use with self-control for sure. I don't have any desire to take more of it - so it's not something I need to control if that makes sense? I am using it as medicine and that low dose is the dose.
I am somewhat interested in experiencing a higher dose/the K-hole, but also nervous of it - and not doing it anytime soon. I have never lost my ego on any drug I have been on. Apparently, losing your ego is a good thing ;) But it scares the shit out of me.
In small doses, it is safe. But addiction you probably know leads to bladder problems.
I've been using it for maybe a month or two. I do use other drugs though too, but it is Ketamine that has made the difference. Before that, there was no escape from my desire to end my life and my misery. Now, I am dating again, I can walk down the street, I can get out of bed, I can do the washing up. My life is born again. No overstatement.
So are you currently undergoing treatment, or did you complete a course? I am just skeptical about the effectiveness long term if you stop taking it.
@Celerity it's not a cure, it's a treatment. So it is not effective long term if the treatment isn't maintained. It is a treatment that needs to be maintained at a protocol. For those it works for, it is a life-changing, life-saving treatment. I can't recommend it highly enough.