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The urges are extremely strong atm and I want to act on them. I could act on them. The thing is, practicalities mean now - not ideal. Did once before and am still here.
I want to. I so want to.
It's like a demon in me. Since I tried to ctb in April it's like it has been awakened and it's just so strong sometimes.
Anyway I'm trying to put it off just for now. I've seen that ketamine has helped
People with treatment resistant depression and mine has been described as severe and enduring. I would like to give it a go although I fear that they will basically say it's because my life is pathetic, lonely and just genuinely depressing.
Has anyone had ketamine infusion therapy? It's not available on NHS but there is a way to get it here and I may try to access it - no guarantee but if it can delay things…
Literally just anybody's experiences on ketamine would help - even street. I'm struggling and so alone.
Thank you.
The urges are extremely strong atm and I want to act on them. I could act on them. The thing is, practicalities mean now - not ideal. Did once before and am still here.
I want to. I so want to.
It's like a demon in me. Since I tried to ctb in April it's like it has been awakened and it's just so strong sometimes.
Anyway I'm trying to put it off just for now. I've seen that ketamine has helped
People with treatment resistant depression and mine has been described as severe and enduring. I would like to give it a go although I fear that they will basically say it's because my life is pathetic, lonely and just genuinely depressing.
Has anyone had ketamine infusion therapy? It's not available on NHS but there is a way to get it here and I may try to access it - no guarantee but if it can delay things…
Literally just anybody's experiences on ketamine would help - even street. I'm struggling and so alone.
Thank you.
