I just felt like i'm gonna do an update, also need to push out some negative emotions out and be a fool carelessly so enjoy
Since my cancelled ctb plan a year ago things have been going really well, found a job, quit it, found new one, quit (is the quitting part good what is she talking about). Yeah i just, you know want more, but the fact i had income was good and felt like i am stable. Now im changing jobs for a better one. Since then my mood and mental health was perfect but it started to deterioate slowly during these months. I started to lose weight again, i have no appetite and i do nothing all day again. I'm not gonna give up of course. I did and egg cleansing 2 days ago, a day after my headphones fell to a bowl with water, i thought fuck it was suppose to clean all evil eyes not put bad luck on me? But the headphones work fine now? So i dont know if you do limpia please direct message me, maybe im doing something wrong. I'm an atheist but since tarot cards have worked for me i believe them and cleansing very much. I still have no one, i have a dating site profile with 260 unread messages, i just look at them and i don't respond. Whats wrong with me? In previous work a guy was hitting on me, he was really nice bought me gifts, do everything perfectly like i dreamt of but i didnt feel anything so i just turned him down. I cant form any relationships nor friends, nor love. I'm alone i havent done anything for the past week just lay and scroll through on my phone and im mad on myself. I still live with my mother but when i work she doesnt have much time to abuse me and i think it is a little better with it anyway. I have one big disadvantage i cant and dont know how to give up. I dont know i feel like my personality switched and i type like a little kid going mad i need stability and to clean my head. I think this med for allergy/eating problems is messing with my head and makes my mind tangled. I'm hard on myself all the time and judge my actions, thoughts, everything all the time.
Since my cancelled ctb plan a year ago things have been going really well, found a job, quit it, found new one, quit (is the quitting part good what is she talking about). Yeah i just, you know want more, but the fact i had income was good and felt like i am stable. Now im changing jobs for a better one. Since then my mood and mental health was perfect but it started to deterioate slowly during these months. I started to lose weight again, i have no appetite and i do nothing all day again. I'm not gonna give up of course. I did and egg cleansing 2 days ago, a day after my headphones fell to a bowl with water, i thought fuck it was suppose to clean all evil eyes not put bad luck on me? But the headphones work fine now? So i dont know if you do limpia please direct message me, maybe im doing something wrong. I'm an atheist but since tarot cards have worked for me i believe them and cleansing very much. I still have no one, i have a dating site profile with 260 unread messages, i just look at them and i don't respond. Whats wrong with me? In previous work a guy was hitting on me, he was really nice bought me gifts, do everything perfectly like i dreamt of but i didnt feel anything so i just turned him down. I cant form any relationships nor friends, nor love. I'm alone i havent done anything for the past week just lay and scroll through on my phone and im mad on myself. I still live with my mother but when i work she doesnt have much time to abuse me and i think it is a little better with it anyway. I have one big disadvantage i cant and dont know how to give up. I dont know i feel like my personality switched and i type like a little kid going mad i need stability and to clean my head. I think this med for allergy/eating problems is messing with my head and makes my mind tangled. I'm hard on myself all the time and judge my actions, thoughts, everything all the time.
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