Keep it to yourself

[CuriousAboutThis]

That isn´t even gaurenteed in first world countries it only happens in the US and only in a few states after the serial killer has spent 10-20 years in prison first.

That just left me more confused, did you shoot yourself with a paintball gun or a real gun? And what caliber? You come on this site and say you survived shooting yourself in the head with one of the biggest handgun calibers in the world and we are a few people who are going to kill ourselves with handguns so a post like that will of course make us nervous like when I am using a 9mm and you say you survived a 44. magnum? Why would you say you survived a 44. Magnum if you think it might have been a paintball gun?

Because I don't have all my memories of what caliber I know I attempted multiple suicide attempts but the people who've been helping will claim that everything that happened in the past was a dream in order to confuse me and or protect me from myself you would have to look into all my data of know how to do that in order to know the truth about what caliber the pistol was but I do know I tried shooting myself with pistols to end my life but I wouldn't recommend shooting yourself i shot myself but now since I typed this on this website and I know there are people trying to "help me" look into my data but I am sorry if I confused you I probably shouldn't mention my multiple suicide attempts on here especially since I don't think I can truly commit suicide.

 

[JadedGray]

I hate those kind of people it´s like addicts who get clean and now preach to the world how drugs are the devil and never use them JUST because they couldn´t control their use which let to abuse due to not having disipline I hate those people they are hypocrites; a bad experience or several and they turn their backs on everything they used to believe in.

Yes, I agree. Unfortunately, experience doesn't necessarily make someone sympathetic.

 

[Ruffian]

We're the only species that saves the weak. Can you imagine a group of lions gathering around one with a fatal disease and figuring out a way to carry him along when they have to migrate? That would be ridiculous, but somehow humans think it's a good idea.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Yes, I agree. Unfortunately, experience doesn't necessarily make someone sympathetic.

It´s because humans are arrogant and feel that they have became more wise through their misfortunes and now have to preach what they subjectively know to be the truth upon everyone else.

 

[CuriousAboutThis]

Yes, I agree. Unfortunately, experience doesn't necessarily make someone sympathetic.

I've used enough drugs trying my best to stay away from them brought me nothing but pain it did used to help alcohol, weed, crack, meth, and tried other drugs before trying to stay away from my inhibitions been raped also been given sodium Pentothal "truth drugs" and was forced to say things I didn't want to and did things I didn't want to also got blackmailed and I snapped due to things that happened to me did some bad shootings and been trying to cope and atone from my past look into my history and data far enough if you are skilled enough to look down the rabbit hole and you'll see things that I've done which I don't want to do anymore sorry for the things I've done but I understand why some of my people shoot each other and kill themselves I don't want to be like that anymore.

 

[JadedGray]

It´s because humans are arrogant and feel that they have became more wise through their misfortunes and now have to preach what they subjectively know to be the truth upon everyone else.

No argument there. Humans are all about self preservation, whether it's their body or their ego.

I've used enough drugs trying my best to stay away from them brought me nothing but pain it did used to help alcohol, weed, crack, meth, and tried other drugs before trying to stay away from my inhibitions been raped also been given sodium Pentothal "truth drugs" and was forced to say things I didn't want to and did things I didn't want to also got blackmailed and I snapped due to things that happened to me did some bad shootings and been trying to cope and atone from my past look into my history and data far enough if you are skilled enough to look down the rabbit hole and you'll see things that I've done which I don't want to do anymore sorry for the things I've done but I understand why some of my people shoot each other and kill themselves I don't want to be like that anymore.

Sorry it sounds like you've been through hell.

 

[spanishguy22]

Maybe I didn't shoot myself with a .44 magnum maybe it was a paintball gun because if I remember correctly I shot myself above my left ear on the side off of my head but I think the people who know will claim it to be a dream or maybe it wasn't the right caliber I know I shot myself with a pistol before trying to bleed out but if you could look through my data you'll know the truth but good luck trying to do that. No I'm not deformed whether you believe me or not isn't quite relevant to me don't try to find a suicide partner on this website I tried and got arrested before not worth it I know I attempted multiple suicide attempts before but watch I'll get screwed over by the people in the future anyways careful who you trust.

Seriously?... There's a huge ass difference between a paintball gun and a real one lmao
Sry for the bad tone you may have memory loss. It's just discouraging potential misinformation.

 

[CuriousAboutThis]

No argument there. Humans are all about self preservation, whether it's their body or their ego.

Sorry it sounds like you've been through hell.

Personally, whether absolute, objective, relative, and or subjective if it is on the subject of drugs sure they can help but they come at a price and I honestly don't want to head down that road anymore I'm no gang member type deal but I got involved and did some highly questionable things I do care about "truth" as much as the next person but I know enough that "truth" can be fabricated if you have enough skill and evidence can be used for you and against you the seven truths I tend to pay attention to is bullshit, the truth, half truths, half lies, complete blatant lies, tell you what people want to hear and or tell you what people don't want to hear I care about peace of mind nowadays and not letting people control me. Sometimes another suicide attempt but that might be too risky for me.

Seriously?... There's a huge ass difference between a paintball gun and a real one lmao
Sry for the bad tone you may have memory loss. It's just discouraging potential misinformation.

I know the difference between paintball guns and real guns if you knew of the things I've done people been trying to make sure I don't "remember" everything I have shot myself with pistols to let myself bleed out just trying to remember where I shot myself but ignore has been so long and nowadays people have the evidence of what I've done and I feel you are skill enough to look into the things I've done over the past if you know how to access all my data and background info even into social security or far beyond that you'll know my past I am trying to move on from the things I've done.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Sorry it sounds like you've been through hell.

How so do you mean from what I told in previous threads? Because I haven´t been addicted to hard drugs I just want to clarify that I just know what humans are like. But yes I have been through hell unrelated to the topic of addiction to drugs.

 

[spanishguy22]

Personally, whether absolute, objective, relative, and or subjective if it is on the subject of drugs sure they can help but they come at a price and I honestly don't want to head down that road anymore I'm no gang member type deal but I got involved and did some highly questionable things I do care about "truth" as much as the next person but I know enough that "truth" can be fabricated if you have enough skill and evidence can be used for you and against you the seven truths I tend to pay attention to is bullshit, the truth, half truths, half lies, complete blatant lies, tell you what people want to hear and or tell you what people don't want to hear I care about peace of mind nowadays and not letting people control me. Sometimes another suicide attempt but that might be too risky for me.

I know the difference between paintball guns and real guns if you knew of the things I've done people been trying to make sure I don't "remember" everything I have shot myself with pistols to let myself bleed out just trying to remember where I shot myself but ignore has been so long and nowadays people have the evidence of what I've done and I feel you are skill enough to look into the things I've done over the past if you know how to access all my data and background info even into social security or far beyond that you'll know my past I am trying to move on from the things I've done.

I'm sorry that you've been through all that ... I want to ctb by shotgun. Also bleed out. But why did you fail so much? Did you shoot where there were other people near to save you?
Also noone here can Access your very personal data only forum post history

 

[JadedGray]

How so do you mean from what I told in previous threads? Because I haven´t been addicted to hard drugs I just want to clarify that I just know what humans are like. But yes I have been through hell unrelated to the topic of addiction to drugs.

I was referring to CuriousAboutThis. But yes, we've all been through some kind of hell otherwise we wouldn't be here.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I was referring to CuriousAboutThis. But yes, we've all been through some kind of hell otherwise we wouldn't be here.

Oh that was pretty hard to tell since you wrote it after quoting me, it would be better to write the message above the quote then OP can see it is for him.

 

[JadedGray]

Oh that was pretty hard to tell since you wrote it after quoting me, it would be better to write the message above the quote then OP can see it is for him.

Sorry. I usually just write my response under the quote. If I'm responding more than once I'll quote the other person under my response to the person above and type there. I wasn't aware it looked confusing. For me, typing above the quote looks confusing.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

The good use is to write after the quote.

 

[601424]

The stigma towards suicide is really horrible, I wish voluntary euthanasia was more of an option in countries like the U.S. because many people don't have lives worth living

 

[CuriousAboutThis]

I'm sorry that you've been through all that ... I want to ctb by shotgun. Also bleed out. But why did you fail so much? Did you shoot where there were other people near to save you?
Also noone here can Access your very personal data only forum post history

Yeah I shot myself where people could save me family and friends don't want me to die but if when I mean data but yeah nevermind about that you wouldn't want to know all the things I've done which I brought upon myself but also other people played a role in it I did some bad things in the past but most people who know me are already claiming it to be a "dream" in hopes I will forget it they use it as a confusion tactic in hopes that I don't remember everything correctly or in hopes I don't make the same choices claims of me being delusional and what not but I know they look through my data via my cable communications and data mine and data tracing and all that but just for warning don't try to find an actual suicide partner on here unless you can get away with it I tried but got arrested and yes I did very bad things that I don't be want to do anymore but I am guessing they are reading my posts because I know they claim to care gotten raped before and drugged and so many things that happened to me caused me to snap and I shot people close to me in a police station and clinic also shot myself in my own apartment I think they gave me back most of my memories.

 

[Letmego. Please]

Those of you thinking about shooting yourself & now spooked by some of what has been said, don't forget that this site has a wide range of people from adolescents with a wonky world view (my perspective not theirs) to rational folks who see no point in life, to the likes of me who battle depression, all the way to the possibly psychotic unwell.

None of those groups is any less deserving of the help of this place, but just remember that you may not be speaking to someone with the same frame of mind as you.

Peace..

 

[CuriousAboutThis]

Those of you thinking about shooting yourself & now spooked by some of what has been said, don't forget that this site has a wide range of people from adolescents with a wonky world view (my perspective not theirs) to rational folks who see no point in life, to the likes of me who battle depression, all the way to the possibly psychotic unwell.

None of those groups is any less deserving of the help of this place, but just remember that you may not be speaking to someone with the same frame of mind as you.

Peace..

Understood I don't think I can do anymore suicide attempts myself but still think about it from time to time I do appreciate this site but realized that it won't be worth finding an actual suicide partner because I tried before but I do find this site helpful. Within different perspectives within rationality and such.