Obliviate
Abandon All Hope
- Aug 13, 2022
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To start off, I am not religious or keen on any religion but I do believe in the spiritual realm/higher power.
One of the huge pushes for CTB was finally realizing/accepting and being "awakened" on how Karma(the way we think) and prayer does NOT exist.
Simply, if it did the world wouldn't be so disgustingly evil. I'm not sure if there are many genuinely good people left honestly.
Hearing about Iran's situation with all the innocents getting tortured, raped and killed for simply protesting for wanting basic human rights makes me sick to my stomach and breaks my heart and no ones doing anything to help especially in our time.
As I was brainwashed as a kid being forced into Christianity, we were taught to just pray, until you grow up and realize just how much bullshit it really is and if things turned out bad it's always "God works in mysterious ways" or "He has a plan" blah blah so I grew up hopeful that all the people that have done me wrong will regret it and get some type of punishment and if I just prayed then good things will happen to me.
SHEESH my poor little naïve innocent child self. Becoming an adult was like a bomb drop.
Since god gave us "free will" that means that anyone can do anything without any real repercussions in the physical world. Also having free will then means that prayer doesn't exist and we are literally all on our own. Everyone for themselves without any divine intervention.
Infact I feel like it's the opposite. The universe aligning perfectly to bring severe bad luck to torture us.
How many times have people who are suffering prayed and didn't get our prayers answered cuz someone decided that with their free will their gonna hurt us/take advantage of us/cause us pain because they know they can and no one will do anything about it? Like most of the population
Even the whole thing about how we have our own spirit guides and guardian angels and I'm like BITCH WHERE?!?! Hello?!?!
An example out of billions: A girl that just happen to be in the wrong place and wrong time gets attacked, raped and murder is not "a part of god's plan"
Where were they when that girl was being tortured? She was destined to be raped and murdered? It has a higher purpose?!? It was meant to happen for a reason?!?!?!? Makes zero sense. There is absolutely nothing that can justify this besides utter free will.
Anyone heard of the junko furuta case? Check it out if you have the stomach for it. One of the biggest human right violations in history. Makes me sick
Maybe they are there or "exist" to help or guide us but it just proves further that they do not have much effect and have severe limits. Then they say all you have to do is reach out to them and ask for them and they will help you. So I gave it a shot, many shots actually, cried, begged, pleaded with my angels, spirit guides, ancestors whatever to help me and things just got worse lmaoooooo. I asked for a sign or sense of hope to keep living 6 months ago when I made my CTB plan and things got worse. You ever just laugh instead of cry when bad things happened because you're like ofcourse, ofcourse it just had to happen to me.
Also these "miracles" that people speak about could be because of a simple reason like an actually good kind hearted person stepped in and helped you from their free will instead of always giving credit to god but not calling him out when bad things happen?!?
Maybe some people are lucky enough to get divine intervention but why certain people and not the ones that genuinely need it?
Where were my angels and god when my innocent baby kitten was dying due to corruption and I prayed and prayed for him to live? When their were mass genocides, war, slavery etc literally every horrible bad thing that happen in history and that continue to happen.
I understand that we all have a time where we have to go but it's just so fucked up that anyone can just make your life shorter because they want to.
Why are all the evil people and our abusers living great and having the time of their lives while we are suffering?
Also why would god give us these evil feelings and abilities and free will in the first damn place to begin with when he KNEW DAMN WELL that MOST people would use it for bad and use it to hurt his "good" children?
Once I had hit my awakening point I knew there was no hope. You get to the top if you have good luck/hit the life lottery or are corrupted. That's it. It's not a coincidence that most of the world leaders/politicians are evil. It's literally because they stepped their way to the top BECUASE THEY FUCKING COULD.
No ones knows the answers to these questions and we won't know till we get to the other side.
My theory is why not just end it before something worse happens like rape and murder? Why wait around for things to get worse unless you have immense wealth and privilege.
There will never be a time of pure blissful happiness. There will ALWAYS be hardships and severe struggles. I do not want this for the next 60+ years.
I think that's why suicide exists and it is an option available because we all have our breaking points and limits. Someone can only withstand so many hardships before they feel like exploding. Imagine not being able to suicide and being forced to live until we die of an illness or get murdered?
I guess people don't get their karma or punishment until after they have died. I personally hope there is a hell or something like that for evil people. That's the only "justice" in my eyes.
One of the huge pushes for CTB was finally realizing/accepting and being "awakened" on how Karma(the way we think) and prayer does NOT exist.
Simply, if it did the world wouldn't be so disgustingly evil. I'm not sure if there are many genuinely good people left honestly.
Hearing about Iran's situation with all the innocents getting tortured, raped and killed for simply protesting for wanting basic human rights makes me sick to my stomach and breaks my heart and no ones doing anything to help especially in our time.
As I was brainwashed as a kid being forced into Christianity, we were taught to just pray, until you grow up and realize just how much bullshit it really is and if things turned out bad it's always "God works in mysterious ways" or "He has a plan" blah blah so I grew up hopeful that all the people that have done me wrong will regret it and get some type of punishment and if I just prayed then good things will happen to me.
SHEESH my poor little naïve innocent child self. Becoming an adult was like a bomb drop.
Since god gave us "free will" that means that anyone can do anything without any real repercussions in the physical world. Also having free will then means that prayer doesn't exist and we are literally all on our own. Everyone for themselves without any divine intervention.
Infact I feel like it's the opposite. The universe aligning perfectly to bring severe bad luck to torture us.
How many times have people who are suffering prayed and didn't get our prayers answered cuz someone decided that with their free will their gonna hurt us/take advantage of us/cause us pain because they know they can and no one will do anything about it? Like most of the population
Even the whole thing about how we have our own spirit guides and guardian angels and I'm like BITCH WHERE?!?! Hello?!?!
An example out of billions: A girl that just happen to be in the wrong place and wrong time gets attacked, raped and murder is not "a part of god's plan"
Where were they when that girl was being tortured? She was destined to be raped and murdered? It has a higher purpose?!? It was meant to happen for a reason?!?!?!? Makes zero sense. There is absolutely nothing that can justify this besides utter free will.
Anyone heard of the junko furuta case? Check it out if you have the stomach for it. One of the biggest human right violations in history. Makes me sick
Maybe they are there or "exist" to help or guide us but it just proves further that they do not have much effect and have severe limits. Then they say all you have to do is reach out to them and ask for them and they will help you. So I gave it a shot, many shots actually, cried, begged, pleaded with my angels, spirit guides, ancestors whatever to help me and things just got worse lmaoooooo. I asked for a sign or sense of hope to keep living 6 months ago when I made my CTB plan and things got worse. You ever just laugh instead of cry when bad things happened because you're like ofcourse, ofcourse it just had to happen to me.
Also these "miracles" that people speak about could be because of a simple reason like an actually good kind hearted person stepped in and helped you from their free will instead of always giving credit to god but not calling him out when bad things happen?!?
Maybe some people are lucky enough to get divine intervention but why certain people and not the ones that genuinely need it?
Where were my angels and god when my innocent baby kitten was dying due to corruption and I prayed and prayed for him to live? When their were mass genocides, war, slavery etc literally every horrible bad thing that happen in history and that continue to happen.
I understand that we all have a time where we have to go but it's just so fucked up that anyone can just make your life shorter because they want to.
Why are all the evil people and our abusers living great and having the time of their lives while we are suffering?
Also why would god give us these evil feelings and abilities and free will in the first damn place to begin with when he KNEW DAMN WELL that MOST people would use it for bad and use it to hurt his "good" children?
Once I had hit my awakening point I knew there was no hope. You get to the top if you have good luck/hit the life lottery or are corrupted. That's it. It's not a coincidence that most of the world leaders/politicians are evil. It's literally because they stepped their way to the top BECUASE THEY FUCKING COULD.
No ones knows the answers to these questions and we won't know till we get to the other side.
My theory is why not just end it before something worse happens like rape and murder? Why wait around for things to get worse unless you have immense wealth and privilege.
There will never be a time of pure blissful happiness. There will ALWAYS be hardships and severe struggles. I do not want this for the next 60+ years.
I think that's why suicide exists and it is an option available because we all have our breaking points and limits. Someone can only withstand so many hardships before they feel like exploding. Imagine not being able to suicide and being forced to live until we die of an illness or get murdered?
I guess people don't get their karma or punishment until after they have died. I personally hope there is a hell or something like that for evil people. That's the only "justice" in my eyes.
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