Just want to share my SN experience

[zrjrzj_no_hope]

Yesterday was the last day of 2022. My long-time wish has always been dead before the new year, and yesterday I had the perfect opportunity where I'm alone and have access to SN and SA (the benefit of being a researcher). This forum has helped me a lot in comparing these two methods and I ultimately decided to try SN first due to its ease of handling. I never really have the gut to carry out a 100% lethal plan, so I didn't prepare or follow any regimen, and I only obtained 3.8g SN (my weight = 60kg). My thought was to try it out, and maybe with a very slim chance, it would work, if not it's fine too.
The SN I found in the lab was from 10 years ago with a said purity of ≥97.0%. With the little amount I obtained, I really did not think it would give me harsh effects. Oh boy, I was so wrong.
Around 11:10 PM, I drank SN dissolved in ~10oz water. It first tasted salty, then it became a weird and nasty ocean-spoiled fish taste, and that taste stuck to the back of my throat. I drank more water and took some mints to cover it. With all that liquid intake I quickly became bloated and nauseous, so I went to bed to try to wait/sleep it out. At 11:30 PM, I went to the bathroom and the next thing I knew was lying on the ground. I wasn't able to stand or move with ease anymore, I stumbled across the 3-meter distance, which seemed forever, and knocked out my nightstand while blacking out every other second. I made it back to bed with probably half or more impaired cognitive function, a crazily fast heartbeat, heavy breathing, extreme nausea, and ears ringing. It was the most awful feeling I have ever had, to the point my survival instinct kicked in and questioned why I did this to myself, and I almost called 911 for help. But I didn't want to ruin anyone's new year's eve and I didn't want to be put on a psych hold, so I never picked up the phone.
Everything went dark until maybe 3 or 4 am, and I woke up with extreme sweat and the urge to throw up. I still wasn't able to move without grabbing everything on the way to support myself standing up. Next thing I knew I was lying on my vomit outside of the bathroom. Apparently, I didn't make it to the bathroom. I threw up three more times in the next hour until only bile was coming out. And that's when I started to regain a little strength and consciousness. I looked in the mirror and my face was gray/ash/pale/blue color, and so are my nails. Methemoglobinemia. It has finally shown.
By morning and noon, I actually recovered quite a bit, surprisingly fast. I was able to clean up all the mess and put on the I'm-fine-and-happy mask to live the day. The blueish color completely faded by evening, and besides a fast heartbeat, I don't have any other lingering symptoms. I thought I couldn't make it past sunrise but I guess the vomiting and ingesting SN on a relatively full stomach kept me from suffering more severe damage.

I have to say I didn't expect SN to be this awful. I'm a coward and I got really scared + traumatized, so I don't think I will try cbt this way again in foreseeable future. Maybe with the antiemetics, anti-anxiety drugs, and a much higher dose of SN, the experience would be much more smooth. I just wanted to share this experience in case people are curious about how ingesting a small amount of SN feels like. And please don't underestimate the lethality of this chemical.

 

[TydalWave]

Actually that is pretty in-line with what I would expect from taking a small dose of SN. You have some major courage doing that... Especially with 10 year old SN. It is validating to me to hear that you don't have many bad lingering effects.

I am super sorry you went through that painful experience. For others it is a good reminder to NEVER try or test run your SN. Small ammounts of SN can really be unpleasant as you arent taking enough to put you unconscious.

 

[damaged_soul]

Hmm I imagine the experience would be much better with the full dose and supporting drugs, as you'd probably suffer less and experience unconsciousness faster.

 

[HerculePoirot]

Maybe it's time to admit that the SN-bashing campaign is now over, specially with broken protocols.

 

[lionetta12]

Yesterday was the last day of 2022. My long-time wish has always been dead before the new year, and yesterday I had the perfect opportunity where I'm alone and have access to SN and SA (the benefit of being a researcher). This forum has helped me a lot in comparing these two methods and I ultimately decided to try SN first due to its ease of handling. I never really have the gut to carry out a 100% lethal plan, so I didn't prepare or follow any regimen, and I only obtained 3.8g SN (my weight = 60kg). My thought was to try it out, and maybe with a very slim chance, it would work, if not it's fine too.
The SN I found in the lab was from 10 years ago with a said purity of ≥97.0%. With the little amount I obtained, I really did not think it would give me harsh effects. Oh boy, I was so wrong.
Around 11:10 PM, I drank SN dissolved in ~10oz water. It first tasted salty, then it became a weird and nasty ocean-spoiled fish taste, and that taste stuck to the back of my throat. I drank more water and took some mints to cover it. With all that liquid intake I quickly became bloated and nauseous, so I went to bed to try to wait/sleep it out. At 11:30 PM, I went to the bathroom and the next thing I knew was lying on the ground. I wasn't able to stand or move with ease anymore, I stumbled across the 3-meter distance, which seemed forever, and knocked out my nightstand while blacking out every other second. I made it back to bed with probably half or more impaired cognitive function, a crazily fast heartbeat, heavy breathing, extreme nausea, and ears ringing. It was the most awful feeling I have ever had, to the point my survival instinct kicked in and questioned why I did this to myself, and I almost called 911 for help. But I didn't want to ruin anyone's new year's eve and I didn't want to be put on a psych hold, so I never picked up the phone.
Everything went dark until maybe 3 or 4 am, and I woke up with extreme sweat and the urge to throw up. I still wasn't able to move without grabbing everything on the way to support myself standing up. Next thing I knew I was lying on my vomit outside of the bathroom. Apparently, I didn't make it to the bathroom. I threw up three more times in the next hour until only bile was coming out. And that's when I started to regain a little strength and consciousness. I looked in the mirror and my face was gray/ash/pale/blue color, and so are my nails. Methemoglobinemia. It has finally shown.
By morning and noon, I actually recovered quite a bit, surprisingly fast. I was able to clean up all the mess and put on the I'm-fine-and-happy mask to live the day. The blueish color completely faded by evening, and besides a fast heartbeat, I don't have any other lingering symptoms. I thought I couldn't make it past sunrise but I guess the vomiting and ingesting SN on a relatively full stomach kept me from suffering more severe damage.

I have to say I didn't expect SN to be this awful. I'm a coward and I got really scared + traumatized, so I don't think I will try cbt this way again in foreseeable future. Maybe with the antiemetics, anti-anxiety drugs, and a much higher dose of SN, the experience would be much more smooth. I just wanted to share this experience in case people are curious about how ingesting a small amount of SN feels like. And please don't underestimate the lethality of this chemical.

Not gonna lie, this crushed some of my motivation to take SN, but it's my only option so I hope my pills knock me out before this kinda stuff happens or before I notice it. I'm mostly worried about drinking it too slowly, but will try my best to chug it.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm sorry you had this experience. I'm grateful to you for sharing it and I hope you don't have any long term side effects.

I REALLY hope though that it will serve as an example to others AGAIN that it isn't wise to experiment with this stuff! Chances are it seems that you won't die but you'll suffer terribly.

I expect some symptoms will be the same for an actual attempt with the full amount and full protocol. Still- I wonder if some will be different and that following the protocol will help. Ie. Antiemetics, fasting, correct ratio of water to SN, mouthwash to numb the taste, lying or sitting down after consuming it (with a bucket to be sick in if needed). I also think taking the full amount with a back up glass on hand will make it more likely you'll pass out quicker.

I could be entirely wrong of course. It may indeed be horrendous. Still, I'm not sure how reflective these impulsive experiments are to a real attempt. It frightens me (of course) reading this but it's still my method I think.

I'm also always amazed at how quickly people seem to recover from it. The experience itself sounds terribly traumatic but it's incredible how quickly people seem to right themselves. I hope that you don't have any lingering effects.

Still- PLEASE everyone- I hope people will finally learn from you- this isn't stuff to muck about with or trial! The worst and likely result is- you won't actually die at all but be in so much distress that you might well reach out for help and land yourself in a psyche ward.

Still- thanks for sharing and all the best to you.

 

[amelis]

Not gonna lie, this crushed some of my motivation to take SN, but it's my only option so I hope my pills knock me out before this kinda stuff happens or before I notice it. I'm mostly worried about drinking it too slowly, but will try my best to chug it.

If you take enough I'm pretty sure you'll get fewer side effects + antiemetics are heavily recommended and OP unfortunately didn't take them

 

[zrjrzj_no_hope]

Not gonna lie, this crushed some of my motivation to take SN, but it's my only option so I hope my pills knock me out before this kinda stuff happens or before I notice it. I'm mostly worried about drinking it too slowly, but will try my best to chug it.

I honestly think with larger amount of SN and antiemetics, the process would be much more tolerable. It was on me that I didn't prepare and plan it all out. But I have to say the taste sucks.

I'm sorry you had this experience. I'm grateful to you for sharing it and I hope you don't have any long term side effects.

I REALLY hope though that it will serve as an example to others AGAIN that it isn't wise to experiment with this stuff! Chances are it seems that you won't die but you'll suffer terribly.

I expect some symptoms will be the same for an actual attempt with the full amount and full protocol. Still- I wonder if some will be different and that following the protocol will help. Ie. Antiemetics, fasting, correct ratio of water to SN, mouthwash to numb the taste, lying or sitting down after consuming it (with a bucket to be sick in if needed). I also think taking the full amount with a back up glass on hand will make it more likely you'll pass out quicker.

I could be entirely wrong of course. It may indeed be horrendous. Still, I'm not sure how reflective these impulsive experiments are to a real attempt. It frightens me (of course) reading this but it's still my method I think.

I'm also always amazed at how quickly people seem to recover from it. The experience itself sounds terribly traumatic but it's incredible how quickly people seem to right themselves. I hope that you don't have any lingering effects.

Still- PLEASE everyone- I hope people will finally learn from you- this isn't stuff to muck about with or trial! The worst and likely result is- you won't actually die at all but be in so much distress that you might well reach out for help and land yourself in a psyche ward.

Still- thanks for sharing and all the best to you.

I was also amazed how quickly I recovered from those horrible effects.

 

[jessisme]

Yesterday was the last day of 2022. My long-time wish has always been dead before the new year, and yesterday I had the perfect opportunity where I'm alone and have access to SN and SA (the benefit of being a researcher). This forum has helped me a lot in comparing these two methods and I ultimately decided to try SN first due to its ease of handling. I never really have the gut to carry out a 100% lethal plan, so I didn't prepare or follow any regimen, and I only obtained 3.8g SN (my weight = 60kg). My thought was to try it out, and maybe with a very slim chance, it would work, if not it's fine too.
The SN I found in the lab was from 10 years ago with a said purity of ≥97.0%. With the little amount I obtained, I really did not think it would give me harsh effects. Oh boy, I was so wrong.
Around 11:10 PM, I drank SN dissolved in ~10oz water. It first tasted salty, then it became a weird and nasty ocean-spoiled fish taste, and that taste stuck to the back of my throat. I drank more water and took some mints to cover it. With all that liquid intake I quickly became bloated and nauseous, so I went to bed to try to wait/sleep it out. At 11:30 PM, I went to the bathroom and the next thing I knew was lying on the ground. I wasn't able to stand or move with ease anymore, I stumbled across the 3-meter distance, which seemed forever, and knocked out my nightstand while blacking out every other second. I made it back to bed with probably half or more impaired cognitive function, a crazily fast heartbeat, heavy breathing, extreme nausea, and ears ringing. It was the most awful feeling I have ever had, to the point my survival instinct kicked in and questioned why I did this to myself, and I almost called 911 for help. But I didn't want to ruin anyone's new year's eve and I didn't want to be put on a psych hold, so I never picked up the phone.
Everything went dark until maybe 3 or 4 am, and I woke up with extreme sweat and the urge to throw up. I still wasn't able to move without grabbing everything on the way to support myself standing up. Next thing I knew I was lying on my vomit outside of the bathroom. Apparently, I didn't make it to the bathroom. I threw up three more times in the next hour until only bile was coming out. And that's when I started to regain a little strength and consciousness. I looked in the mirror and my face was gray/ash/pale/blue color, and so are my nails. Methemoglobinemia. It has finally shown.
By morning and noon, I actually recovered quite a bit, surprisingly fast. I was able to clean up all the mess and put on the I'm-fine-and-happy mask to live the day. The blueish color completely faded by evening, and besides a fast heartbeat, I don't have any other lingering symptoms. I thought I couldn't make it past sunrise but I guess the vomiting and ingesting SN on a relatively full stomach kept me from suffering more severe damage.

I have to say I didn't expect SN to be this awful. I'm a coward and I got really scared + traumatized, so I don't think I will try cbt this way again in foreseeable future. Maybe with the antiemetics, anti-anxiety drugs, and a much higher dose of SN, the experience would be much more smooth. I just wanted to share this experience in case people are curious about how ingesting a small amount of SN feels like. And please don't underestimate the lethality of this chemical.

Thanks for sharing. Hugs.

 

[releasespieces]

Consistent warnings all over SS about not testing SN. I'm just curious how the OP obtained 3.8 grams only? Do they have a sample pack you can try out for free somewhere? Try our SN.. it's the best!

I hope you are ok OP, but I'm also curious as to why you did it and what did you expect to have happen? It's suspicious that all too often these members contributing to the site have very limited posts or comments and voila… a horror story post about SN. Again, I hope you recover well OP and thanks for the contribution, but please understand there are reasons some members here find posts like this a bit all too peculiar.

 

[zrjrzj_no_hope]

Consistent warnings all over SS about not testing SN. I'm just curious how the OP obtained 3.8 grams only? Do they have a sample pack you can try out for free somewhere? Try our SN.. it's the best!

I hope you are ok OP, but I'm also curious as to why you did it and what did you expect to have happen? It's suspicious that all too often these members contributing to the site have very limited posts or comments and voila… a horror story post about SN. Again, I hope you recover well OP and thanks for the contribution, but please understand there are reasons some members here find posts like this a bit all too peculiar.

I only got 3.8 g because I was weighing it out in a small glass vial in lab, which is how I got the precise weight. I wasn't expecting such a small amount to take up almost all space in the vial and I didn't want to raise suspicion by filling another vial. I was well aware of the warnings and the regimen that people are supposed to follow. Honestly it was an impulsive act, I didn't want to enter the new year. As for what I was expecting, the amount I took is 63.33mg/kg, it is not a 100% lethal dose but I was hoping I would have the luck to die from it. I just didn't expect survival instinct, fear, and anxiety to kick in once the toxicity gets me, and I guess that's the part I want to share. Not to discourage people from SN, but to justify why the guide should be followed.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds quite horrible what you experienced, to go through all that but still be here. But at least you didn't end up with any kind of damage.

 

[Judy Garland]

I only got 3.8 g because I was weighing it out in a small glass vial in lab, which is how I got the precise weight. I wasn't expecting such a small amount to take up almost all space in the vial and I didn't want to raise suspicion by filling another vial. I was well aware of the warnings and the regimen that people are supposed to follow. Honestly it was an impulsive act, I didn't want to enter the new year. As for what I was expecting, the amount I took is 63.33mg/kg, it is not a 100% lethal dose but I was hoping I would have the luck to die from it. I just didn't expect survival instinct, fear, and anxiety to kick in once the toxicity gets me, and I guess that's the part I want to share. Not to discourage people from SN, but to justify why the guide should be followed.

Now imagine if you took 20g and survived that. THAT's the ONLY thing keeping me from following through. All of the symptoms you described would be magnified and I can take the high heart rate, the vision blurring, even the dizziness, but what I can't handle is the throwing up for hours if a failed attempt were to occur. God help me for I am afraid.

 

[zrjrzj_no_hope]

Now imagine if you took 20g and survived that. THAT's the ONLY thing keeping me from following through. All of the symptoms you described would be magnified and I can take the high heart rate, the vision blurring, even the dizziness, but what I can't handle is the throwing up for hours if a failed attempt were to occur. God help me for I am afraid.

That would be a really scary thing to think of. I have to say the emotional turmoil and survival instinct were what got me in the aftermath. The next worst thing was the taste, and that will probably be magnified with 20g. Judging from how quickly I became unconscious I would imagine that with 20g it would only be faster, and that amount (if with high purity) should be very lethal (LD for humans is supposedly 71mg/kg) if it is not medically intervened. Reading other posts on here about SN, with high doses people tend to be knocked out pretty solid and make it seem much smoother.

 

[peacetime]

Well, the point is to take it and fall unconscious and ctb to be fair

 

[Tormentedme]

Yesterday was the last day of 2022. My long-time wish has always been dead before the new year, and yesterday I had the perfect opportunity where I'm alone and have access to SN and SA (the benefit of being a researcher). This forum has helped me a lot in comparing these two methods and I ultimately decided to try SN first due to its ease of handling. I never really have the gut to carry out a 100% lethal plan, so I didn't prepare or follow any regimen, and I only obtained 3.8g SN (my weight = 60kg). My thought was to try it out, and maybe with a very slim chance, it would work, if not it's fine too.
The SN I found in the lab was from 10 years ago with a said purity of ≥97.0%. With the little amount I obtained, I really did not think it would give me harsh effects. Oh boy, I was so wrong.
Around 11:10 PM, I drank SN dissolved in ~10oz water. It first tasted salty, then it became a weird and nasty ocean-spoiled fish taste, and that taste stuck to the back of my throat. I drank more water and took some mints to cover it. With all that liquid intake I quickly became bloated and nauseous, so I went to bed to try to wait/sleep it out. At 11:30 PM, I went to the bathroom and the next thing I knew was lying on the ground. I wasn't able to stand or move with ease anymore, I stumbled across the 3-meter distance, which seemed forever, and knocked out my nightstand while blacking out every other second. I made it back to bed with probably half or more impaired cognitive function, a crazily fast heartbeat, heavy breathing, extreme nausea, and ears ringing. It was the most awful feeling I have ever had, to the point my survival instinct kicked in and questioned why I did this to myself, and I almost called 911 for help. But I didn't want to ruin anyone's new year's eve and I didn't want to be put on a psych hold, so I never picked up the phone.
Everything went dark until maybe 3 or 4 am, and I woke up with extreme sweat and the urge to throw up. I still wasn't able to move without grabbing everything on the way to support myself standing up. Next thing I knew I was lying on my vomit outside of the bathroom. Apparently, I didn't make it to the bathroom. I threw up three more times in the next hour until only bile was coming out. And that's when I started to regain a little strength and consciousness. I looked in the mirror and my face was gray/ash/pale/blue color, and so are my nails. Methemoglobinemia. It has finally shown.
By morning and noon, I actually recovered quite a bit, surprisingly fast. I was able to clean up all the mess and put on the I'm-fine-and-happy mask to live the day. The blueish color completely faded by evening, and besides a fast heartbeat, I don't have any other lingering symptoms. I thought I couldn't make it past sunrise but I guess the vomiting and ingesting SN on a relatively full stomach kept me from suffering more severe damage.

I have to say I didn't expect SN to be this awful. I'm a coward and I got really scared + traumatized, so I don't think I will try cbt this way again in foreseeable future. Maybe with the antiemetics, anti-anxiety drugs, and a much higher dose of SN, the experience would be much more smooth. I just wanted to share this experience in case people are curious about how ingesting a small amount of SN feels like. And please don't underestimate the lethality of this chemical.

That says a lot for SN shelf life if it was 10 years old and remained potent...