Just waiting

[FoxInWaiting]

I'm just waiting anymore.

After the little victory of a trashy neighbor getting evicted, the dread of life is starting to get back to me.

Every day exactly the same as the last, no progress or way out of the loop, you get the drill.

I'm not sure why I'm even waiting tbh.

It just dosent feel like the right time yet I guess.

I know that time is getting closer again though. I just have to feel it.

Being here is once again slowly and surely feeling less correct.

I just wish things werent so boring as I waited. Something to change, someone to reach out to, just....something to wrap things up.

Some kind of event or opportunity to tell a past betrayer the "go fuck yourself" they deserve.

idk, its just all so boring

 

[am1485]

I'm just waiting too to be honest. Things never seem to change. It is like a neverending loop. To CTB it needs to feel right, but the moment always comes and goes for me. I'm just tired of always being bored and being trapped and I'm waiting for the one final straw.

I'm glad your neighbor got evicted. I also have a shitty neighbor that I hope gets evicted soon.

Anyways, I hope something good happens to break you out of the tedium.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly agree that existing here is so tedious and dreadful, the reality is that we are just waiting around to die anyway, existence is just a meaningless and insignificant distraction from the fact that death is inevitable. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Glad the crappy neighbor got evicted.

I feel this. I feel like I'm just getting by, by balancing enough escapism mentally. I would like also a final event. Lately been noticing local and otherwise events. I dont even per say like going out much plus summer is hard for me physically.

I've been bored too. It's weird to me bc I've never been suicidal and bored but here I am....

I'm not sure I can handle actively participating in life anymore but I don't think I can just sit here and wait to die.

I really dunno. I would like to do smthin but what? I'm not sure tbh.