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DeathSleep

DeathSleep

Unstable Potato
May 25, 2023
282
I have been trying to make the best of my time here so that things don't get worse than they are. I started a new job and everybody seems hopeful and happy for me. The few people left in my life anyways. But I still very much want to ctb. I have no one to talk to about it except here. My therapist cares about me and I feel like it hurts her to hear that I want to die. Plus I don't want to go to the psych ward again. I feel so stuck. I've had failed attempts and I don't want to fail again. I wish I could just switch spots with someone who was dying but actually wants to live. I would die for them gladly. I wish things made me happy anymore. The thought of possibly living another 35 years or more fills me with anxiety. I don't think I'll ever get to a point again where I don't regularly think about suicide.
I've been taking small steps towards getting a gun. The smallest steps to do anything are just so difficult right now though. It's a struggle to do anything. I think I can get a gun though because while I've been to the psych ward, I've never been committed. So, as long as I keep moving forward with the permit, I should succeed from what I understand. It would be such a relief to get my hands on a gun. Then I could go at any time.
I feel so lonely. I don't feel close to anyone. I just want to die. I'm over this life.
 
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hypercones

hypercones

Member
Jun 12, 2023
5
Sorry to hear. Have you talked to your therapist about medication at all? SSRIs were never a silver bullet for me but they did help a little in seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,478
I hope you eventually find what you search for, I also feel dread at the thought of being trapped here for potentially decades, the thought of such a thing is so horrible to me so of course it's really understandable just wishing to be free.
 
Unattainable666

Unattainable666

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2023
1,346
I'm so sorry this fucked up world has brought you to this point. I feel the same way the sooner I ctb the better off I will be
 

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