Just took a paroxitine tablet probably massive mistake

[sparkie]

Havent taken anti depressants in 4 years it took me a good 14 months to get off them I went on them in 2004 i got off them in 2018 have been clean until today i just cant take it anymore i need a break Also i looked at old photos of me in France on my motorbike id never do that now so maybe i need anti ds to do these things again

 

[JustAMatterOfTime]

I like that picture

 

[Trisolaris]

Good luck, maybe they'll do the trick.

 

[suicidesheep31]

I am kind of in the same boat.
I stopped AD in January and my depression went back.
I am in theory taking them again since two weeks but only took them during one week because I was not sure I wanted to take them.
I am afraid about the side effects as hyperactivity of the jaw, pain in the back and weight gain and in general just i don't want chemicals in my body anymore.

 

[Rolliewoo]

Are you feeling like you are mourning for your old self, when you were brave and keen and happy even. I think that feeling is the worst. You're doing the right thing, dont feel ashamed or like you're taking a backward step, sometimes we need the chemical balance these tablets can bring and when you get balanced and well you can set yourself small goals to smash. Get back on ya beautiful bike or even just visit France again. Sending you hugs

 

[sparkie]

Thanks for replys, didnt sleep well Monday night because brain getting used to AD but my receptors must be wide open given how long i was on them before, felt relaxed on Tuesday and negative recurring thought patterns started to get less i cant believe how quick it happened, i went for a 5 km walk, i havent walked in a year, and today Wednesday i went for another 5 km walk, and i feel really good my head is buzzing a bit in a good way, and i appeared ALOT more relaxed today not as paranoid But im going to be very careful with these will give it three months and see how i feel, i still think they are quite dangerous as in smoking puff gives you a false outlook on life but at this stage i really dont care given my plans for the future- instead of sad ill go happy!
PS I lost alot of money in my life but ive still got a few quid i could buy a bike tomorrow and go round the World but ive no interest in doing that and ive done my research when your depressed things that you used to get great joy from no longer interest you- thats me textbook I could even travel for a couple of years on my savings but have completely no interest (i think these anti ds make me chat more) all i want is to get any money i have to the right people and then go i have no interest in spending it- but maybe in two weeks when these anti ds really kick in ill think different