Not really asking a question here, I just feel... weird. I have SN but I have a lot of anxiety about getting trapped in a situation where I want to ctb and can't (right now I'm away for a couple months and didn't bring it in case airport security found it) so I've been reading about other methods. I'd tried to compress my carotid arteries in the past using a cord I held with my hands, so I'd release it if I went unconscious. I was never successful, only managed to get teh jugulars and feel a ton of pressure in my head. But this time when I got to a certain pressure, within a few seconds I felt dizzy, tingly, and weak so I lost my grip on the cord as intended.
I don't know what to do with this feeling. it alleviates my anxiety a lot but also feels strange. with SN there is no rehearsal or testing it so the feeling of experiencing what I might experience before dying is messing with my head a little.
I don't know what to do with this feeling. it alleviates my anxiety a lot but also feels strange. with SN there is no rehearsal or testing it so the feeling of experiencing what I might experience before dying is messing with my head a little.
