Just had a fight with my family - never been more serious about CTB

[bipolaremerald]

Hey everyone - I'm totally done with this. I'm sick of being abused and having no sympathy from my family for having mental illness. I'm sick of being called lazy when I'm disabled. I'm sick of being compared to people and told they have it worse. I'm looking for SN ASAP because I cannot do hanging or firearm (I'm in Canada). My mom keeps wishing on me to be homeless and bludgeoned to death by gang initiation members. I know my family doesn't want to deal with me and I don't care. I can't work. Please, if someone has a source for SN I'd be willing to pay more than necessary for it.

Thanks.

 

[U. A.]

What awful things to say to one's child. I hate to say that unless you have a direct connection SN is seeming like practically a non-option at this point. Every account of international orders end in border seizure, many with "wellness" checks, and I've not heard of any domestic source that's not a lab which can't be bought from without credentials.
Sorry you're here...

 

[58Alice85]

Abuse your family harder
Tell your mom she is a disgusting w**** and that you are happy she is slowly dying
you can buy SN on darkweb markets i think

 

[[Lord Void]]

Abuse your family harder
Tell your mom she is a disgusting w**** and that you are happy she is slowly dying
you can buy SN on darkweb markets i think

That risks making things more hostile please don't do this. Instead I would advise not engaging, grey rocking. I understand how lashing out at the people who caused you pain sounds appealing, but our understanding of what true pain is should empower us to break the cycle even if the other person might deserve it. Besides since it sounds like you're fairly committed to ctb, that sends enough of a message anyway.

As a side note if your circumstances are what's causing you to want to ctb, I'd urge you to look at seeing if you can change them. I understand that's not always possible or might not even solve the problem depending on how far down the hole you are, but just make sure you really ask yourself if this is the only option for you. Wishing you the best.