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tb1998
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- Aug 30, 2024
- 7
So yeah I've had a crap day, relapsed in SH. After something like 8/9 months?
The reason being, I broke up with my girlfriend of 6 years, we've been together since I was 20. And on and off for a while before that. I think because I have BPD and potential undiagnosed adhd or autism I find it hard to make or keep friends. I struggle to give people a percentage of me equally, I find it easier to put 100% into one person. And then I believe I don't need anybody else? If that makes much sense. And because of this it's so hard right now for me to be okay. As I have nobody else.. no friends. My dad is my only other support network, but I hate bringing my mental health up to him. I've had a bad few days a lot of crying, not been able to eat or sleep.
I did go to hospital today to be seen, and they sent me home because ' I didn't need treatment' which doesn't make sense as the wounds needed steri's. Kinda made me realise that if it's intentional they don't care. I'm hoping sharing on here can make me feel a little less alone, otherwise my solution will be one I deep down don't want.
The reason being, I broke up with my girlfriend of 6 years, we've been together since I was 20. And on and off for a while before that. I think because I have BPD and potential undiagnosed adhd or autism I find it hard to make or keep friends. I struggle to give people a percentage of me equally, I find it easier to put 100% into one person. And then I believe I don't need anybody else? If that makes much sense. And because of this it's so hard right now for me to be okay. As I have nobody else.. no friends. My dad is my only other support network, but I hate bringing my mental health up to him. I've had a bad few days a lot of crying, not been able to eat or sleep.
I did go to hospital today to be seen, and they sent me home because ' I didn't need treatment' which doesn't make sense as the wounds needed steri's. Kinda made me realise that if it's intentional they don't care. I'm hoping sharing on here can make me feel a little less alone, otherwise my solution will be one I deep down don't want.
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