Just got out of the Psych Ward for the 4th time and I want to die even more

[Kyotospade]

Everytime I go I want to Ctb more and more and more.I only went this time because I failed a hanging attempt again , I keep failing and all I want to do is not be here. I was honestly hoping to get enough meds to od on them again . Smh can anyone give some for of advice , I'll take just about anything at this point.

 

[danny10]

I think doing OD with meds is really hard, depending on the medication you use. For most meds, you would require a huge amount but it would not be possible to ingest the large amount without puking. Have you considered other methods? Nowadays, OD with meds is quite difficult for CTB. I really wish peace for you, I know psych wards myself all too well and hate those places...

 

[J&L383]

Agree that psych wards are rarely helpful, perhaps sometimes. It's unfortunate that they can't do better. And ODing on any Rx drug currently available today (other than N, and the five drug cocktail) is unlikely to end your life. At least not right away.

 

[brokeandbroken]

Agree that psych wards are rarely helpful, perhaps sometimes. It's unfortunate that they can't do better. And ODing on any Rx drug currently available today (other than N, and the five drug cocktail) is unlikely to end your life. At least not right away.

To be honest i think they have the potential to be. However in my experience the staff(s) dont give a fuck about the patients so how could they. I saw more of them going on power trips to soothe their fragile egos than actually trying to help somebody. The people attracted to the position aren't compatible with it. The doctors are some of the laziest people ive ever met. Either never there or a massive slob. Can't say they gave two shits about the patient. If by some miracle during the small amount of time they are on the ward that they had to do chest compressions for any reason I'm genuinely not sure any of them would be capable of performing it better then someone on the street. Hell im not sure they could perform a rudimentary basic physical exam correctly. I certainly never saw it or saw it attempted. The nurses cold hearted psychopathic ego maniacs who want to show how powerful they are even if it's to a bunch of people suffering sure it makes it even more fun... Did have to strip completely naked in front of a nurse (after being in the ER for multiple days) so if you want to call being sexually harassed by a nurse a physical exam knock yourself out. Janitors seemed hard working though.

 

[yowai]

I'm getting sn today and I'll hide the required amount somewhere in my cosmetic bag just in case I'm ever forced to be in a mental unit again lol

 

[FuneralCry]

I also just wish to be gone, to cease existing and never suffer ever again is all I could hope for, it always feels so cruel how there isn't the option to for me to just painlessly die and never suffer ever again, I see so much cruelty in how trying to die can go wrong. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the peace you search for.

 

[Kyotospade]

I think doing OD with meds is really hard, depending on the medication you use. For most meds, you would require a huge amount but it would not be possible to ingest the large amount without puking. Have you considered other methods? Nowadays, OD with meds is quite difficult for CTB. I really wish peace for you, I know psych wards myself all too well and hate those places...

I'm most likely going to try to hang myself again, I know ods are very unsuccessful because I've done a lot of them.

 

[Daxter777]

Psych wards suck. The last time I went they managed to treat me and it helped with my depression at the time but i ironically got more and more depressed each day in the ward.

Depression is back again though, panic attacks and anxiety too.

 

[J&L383]

I have only visited a friend two times in the psych ward and it convinced me I never want to be there. I do have a friend who works in a state hospital and she's serious about her work. It's a tough gig. I wish there were more success stories, however.