Venting Just floating

[Some place nice]

I feel like a ghost just floating around. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so tired but I've already taken 2 naps today and not matter how much I cry it never feels enough. I don't feel better after I just feel the same. My paranoia has been active all day. I just don't feel like I'm supposed to be here. I wanted out so bad but I'm still here. I confessed my feeling to the guy I like in my note for him. Ik this isn't high school but, I still get scared that he's just gonna leave after that. Everyone else who found out that I liked them did. I just wish I could feel normal instead of in between.