Story Just failed. Partial suspension

[Oanlads]

I put pretty much all my weight down in a position where my legs are slightly bent down and I was suspended for about 12 secs but nothing happened. It was just painful and I felt numb in the legs and felt that my head was indeed deprived of blood but yet I didn't seem to reach unconsciousness.
I really need to ctb but might give up... ugh times are tough

 

[Welcumtotherealworld]

Yeah I'd say skip the hyperventilation part, it gives you no indication if the circulation has really stopped properly or not.

Though if you'd lost control of your body then it definitely had, at least partially.

I think this means my tests were successful. I almost lost complete control of my body after 5-7 seconds, although it may even have been 4-5.

For me the sweetspot was weirdly enough at the bottom of my neck. But yeah OP, ditch the hyperventilating shit, it doesn't give you an indication if you've managed to compress them or not, if you're afraid of the passing out feeling I'd recommend jerking off whilst doing it. It sounds weird but you'll get acclimated and maybe even turned on by it, it helped me at least.

 

[Welcumtotherealworld]

I put pretty much all my weight down in a position where my legs are slightly bent down and I was suspended for about 12 secs but nothing happened. It was just painful and I felt numb in the legs and felt that my head was indeed deprived of blood but yet I didn't seem to reach unconsciousness.
I really need to ctb but might give up... ugh times are tough

If giving up is an option for you I think you should reconsider your situation. Or not, it's ultimately your choice and your life, I'm just giving my input.

 

[Oanlads]

I think this means my tests were successful. I almost lost complete control of my body after 5-7 seconds, although it may even have been 4-5.

For me the sweetspot was weirdly enough at the bottom of my neck. But yeah OP, ditch the hyperventilating shit, it doesn't give you an indication if you've managed to compress them or not, if you're afraid of the passing out feeling I'd recommend jerking off whilst doing it. It sounds weird but you'll get acclimated and maybe even turned on by it, it helped me at least.

I don't mind the passing out feeling unless it comes with complete closure of the airway, suffocation and the extreme discomfort...

Were you suffocating as well at that time? And did you pass out ? And about your sweet spot, where exactly is it ? Right below your Adam's apple ?

 

[Welcumtotherealworld]

I don't mind the passing out feeling unless it comes with complete closure of the airway, suffocation and the extreme discomfort...

Were you suffocating as well at that time? And did you pass out ? And about your sweet spot, where exactly is it ? Right below your Adam's apple ?

I didn't pass out as it wasn't the correct time or place but I was close to doing it by accident if I hadn't managed to get to my feet. For me it was below, but it might be different for you. If you don't feel anything other than pain within the first 10 seconds you're doing it wrong.

My neck and airway was slightly compressed and uncomfortable, but not unbearable.

 

[Oanlads]

The bit of my neck that has the burn mark from the rope feels so weird(smooth?) to the touch and swollen

 

[Oanlads]

I don't know if I just should keep trying or wait until my neck recovers...
but things get worse by the day so ugh. Only if I knew when I'm actually gonna pass

 

[Wolfjob_dayjob]

Oanlads I'm sorry you're hurting more after your attempt. Neck and back pain is no fucking fun, I'm sure plenty of peeps here know that. Is it weird to say...I hope you feel better? Sorry.

 

[Oanlads]

Oanlads I'm sorry you're hurting more after your attempt. Neck and back pain is no fucking fun, I'm sure plenty of peeps here know that. Is it weird to say...I hope you feel better? Sorry.

Thank you :) appreciated

I hope I figure it out ASAP

 

[Oanlads]

Idk if it's becahee of what happened when I failed but my collarbones ache badly especially when I breathe

 

[tiggles2000]

I don't even have bean bags but what is the night night method if you don't mind explaining a bit ?

There is a megathread on the night-night method that you can read. However, in a nutshell, it is putting either tape or a ratchet tie down strap around your neck, with some padding to compress the carotid arteries.

 

[Oanlads]

There is a megathread on the night-night method that you can read. However, in a nutshell, it is putting either tape or a ratchet tie down strap around your neck, with some padding to compress the carotid arteries.

Thanks.
I've read about it but it doesn't seem to be quite reliable? It makes sense theoretically but I cannot be sure whether it actually leads you to death as in further than just unconsciousness.
I haven't heard anyone died by that method either.

What do you think?

 

[tiggles2000]

Thanks.
I've read about it but it doesn't seem to be quite reliable? It makes sense theoretically but I cannot be sure whether it actually leads you to death as in further than just unconsciousness.
I haven't heard anyone died by that method either.

What do you think?

There are a couple of threads started by people who have since CTB with the method. Personally, I have tried it with my setup, and it definitely can lead to unconsciousness.

 

[ron_g]

Idk if it's becahee of what happened when I failed but my collarbones ache badly especially when I breathe

Is it the medial (towards the center of the body) part of your collarbones that aches? The sternocleidomastoid muscles, which attach to them, are sometimes injured in hangings.

 

[Oanlads]

Is it the medial (towards the center of the body) part of your collarbones that aches? The sternocleidomastoid muscles, which attach to them, are sometimes injured in hangings.

That's exactly that! I couldn't explain well as I had never had a pain in such a place.

 

[Oanlads]

There are a couple of threads started by people who have since CTB with the method. Personally, I have tried it with my setup, and it definitely can lead to unconsciousness.

Now it seems very fair. I might give it a shot as well

 

[Oanlads]

Ugh I'm going bankrupt soon.
I've started looking for a new job since then I won't even be able to ctb anymore.

I still need to figure a way out as in ctb in case I have no luck in finding one.

I just need to ctb. God life is such a pain.

Even if I find a good job and things start looking up financially, I will still need to ctb asap. Which brings me back to where I wonder what the point in trying to financially sustain myself even longer would be.
Best thing would be for me to find a way out of this lif

 

[ron_g]

That's exactly that! I couldn't explain well as I had never had a pain in such a place.

Has it improved a bit?

 

[Roberto]

If I wanted to hang myself, I think I would take ansiolitics, diazepam before. And or alcohol. Is it bad?

 

[essbet]

If I wanted to hang myself, I think I would take ansiolitics, diazepam before. And or alcohol. Is it bad?

I've experimented with these. I don't find it helps when it comes to those final make-or-break moments, the survival adrenaline rush is intense as fuck.

 

[Vaughn]

Sorry, you did not get the results you wanted. If I wanted to hang, I would probably drink quite a bit before...

 

[Oanlads]

Hey guys. Thanks for the comments.

So, since I literally do not give a flying f about my life anymore and yet still need to get money to not go bankrupt I've started working as a bar escort(just chatting and drinking).
Hope this goes well and I get a lot of money...

It's not quite something I should say here but if you come to Tokyo or if anyone you know comes to Tokyo and wants a bit of entertainment, I can be the guy.

If this doesn't work out then I'll simply go bankrupt quite soon and life would get even worse. Ugh

I'm so stressed. This is literally my last shot.

I'll still have my suicidal thoughts but it'd definitely give me more options and that.

Fingers crossed for all of us