CheekyPhobia
Reasonless, well it stands to reason...
- Aug 1, 2022
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Hey anyone reading, I've been on this forum for a little bit now (18 when I started, 19 now) and some time ago some helpful members assisted me in sourcing SN from IC. Shortly after it arrived, within a fortnight both my great grandmother and my grandfather passed away and I delayed my suicide as I felt it would be wrong to bring another death to our family in such a short time.
I suppose I also wanted to try the naive notion of living for them. However I am many months down the line and my despondency, agitation with this existence and childhood trauma has not faded and so today I decided it's time to reschedule CTB.
I fasted for 12 hours, took 400mg of ibuprofen and measured out between 2-2.5g of my SN (the scale has a bit of give) and I sipped on it over the course of 20minutes. I know the sticky threads talk about this being dangerous but my SI is rather strong and this has been helpful in loosening it. Anyway, I haven't noticed that many sideffects really which is very reassuring as not being able to source any anti-emetics had been concerning me. I will list the symptoms I experienced below, and for disclosure it's been about 45 minutes since I finished drinking it.
-Persistent headache that came in pretty quickly and is yet to leave but not really severe just present.
-Very strong burps in which the "synthetic" taste of the SN is quite clear.
-Blue lips and a loss of colour in my fingertips and my face
-Shaking hands and legs but it doesn't hurt it's simply a bodily reaction (could also be anxiousness)
-Drowsiness, just wanting to lay down and sleep
-A lot of saliva being produced, especially when drinking
-Can feel it in my stomach but it wasn't unpleasant just noticeable that it was there
This is all I have been able to identify since I ingested it and this has made me very hopeful for going through with the real thing. A lot of people complain about the taste but I had just brushed my teeth and thought the combination of the two was actually quite pleasant. I didn't feel any urge to vomit though I suspect that could increase as the dose does. Also my heart rate was a little higher but wasn't painful or anything like that. Overall, pretty good experience and I'm feeling confident going forward.
EDIT: Was washing up and just remembered I had eaten leftover curried sausages this morning so the fast didn't happen which may have caused lesser symptoms. Still a helpful experience though.
I suppose I also wanted to try the naive notion of living for them. However I am many months down the line and my despondency, agitation with this existence and childhood trauma has not faded and so today I decided it's time to reschedule CTB.
I fasted for 12 hours, took 400mg of ibuprofen and measured out between 2-2.5g of my SN (the scale has a bit of give) and I sipped on it over the course of 20minutes. I know the sticky threads talk about this being dangerous but my SI is rather strong and this has been helpful in loosening it. Anyway, I haven't noticed that many sideffects really which is very reassuring as not being able to source any anti-emetics had been concerning me. I will list the symptoms I experienced below, and for disclosure it's been about 45 minutes since I finished drinking it.
-Persistent headache that came in pretty quickly and is yet to leave but not really severe just present.
-Very strong burps in which the "synthetic" taste of the SN is quite clear.
-Blue lips and a loss of colour in my fingertips and my face
-Shaking hands and legs but it doesn't hurt it's simply a bodily reaction (could also be anxiousness)
-Drowsiness, just wanting to lay down and sleep
-A lot of saliva being produced, especially when drinking
-Can feel it in my stomach but it wasn't unpleasant just noticeable that it was there
This is all I have been able to identify since I ingested it and this has made me very hopeful for going through with the real thing. A lot of people complain about the taste but I had just brushed my teeth and thought the combination of the two was actually quite pleasant. I didn't feel any urge to vomit though I suspect that could increase as the dose does. Also my heart rate was a little higher but wasn't painful or anything like that. Overall, pretty good experience and I'm feeling confident going forward.
EDIT: Was washing up and just remembered I had eaten leftover curried sausages this morning so the fast didn't happen which may have caused lesser symptoms. Still a helpful experience though.
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