monkeybone
Member
- Nov 8, 2025
- 5
im looking forward to christmas eve and new years eve since i think ima have some good meals and enjoy time with my siblings i might also get really drunk ive picked the habit of drinking like once in a while and watch movies i feel happy and less miserable when i drink however i dont do it on a daily i try to let some days pass or even more than a week to drink again i dont have or achieved things that guys my age have im jobless, no girlfriend, i am not a functional person and im not really that young i mean im not a kid anymore im sad and unsatisfied on what my life turned out to be i had hope before but now i think life is just a journey that sometimes forces u to suffer or go through bullshit that is just beyond painful most people are fucking bullies bullying is not something that only happens to children in school sadly our society is full of bullies too society is fucking harsh people mock the mental ill and churches are full of judgmental hypocrites ive never felt welcomed anywhere in this life like my mere purpose was to be destroyed and suffer, shoutout to my mom cause she showed me love my whole life but ive seen that im in such a bad state that im even a burden to the person that loves me the most some individuals harmed me they shouldve not been able to walk away to enjoy their beautiful lives after what they did to me but ig thats just life cry about it i think when u go through alot of bs u wanna have hope but i feel like i just wanna walk away from life fuck this! nobody adds, but everyone takes away, this is our world my advice to some people is dont try and commit suicide by getting sick it will fucking suck u will only suffer more everyday its fucking agonizing being in bed feeling sick ash bc u wanted to kill yourself and didnt have the balls so u decided to get sick can be serious consequences like going blind not being able to sleep because u feel like u gonna have a heart attack feeling faint often etc its more painful and agonizing i dont encourage anyone to do it if u have at a chance at a good life enjoy yours and make the most of it i wouldnt be here if these 2 individuals hadnt harrassed me. Im really looking forward to these holidays ima be the happiest ive been and will be in a long time. Blessings to everyone. 
