Method Jumping infront of a train, would it be a peaceful enough way to ctb?

[Pollenallergy]

I feel as if my death is inevitable, I truly cant fathom living by the time I turn 21, things aren't working out for me and I feel as if they never will, therefore I have decided that CTB is my best option. I have considered multiple methods, yet they all seem so frightening, I don't wish to spend my final moments in fear or panick. So I came to the conclusion that jumping infront of a train seemed easy enough, I doubt I'd be stopped, I live out by the countryside afterall. Would walking along the tracks, far away from the platform, then jump, resort in a remotely peaceful death? Or perhaps I'd lie down, I've thought about taking a painreliever which has been prescribed by a doctor, got you sleeping like a rock. I'm not fully sure if I want to CTB right this instant, there are things I have yet to be satisfied with, but when the time comes, I want to be reassured that I have a reliable path to go. I would appreciate someones opinion on this. It feels quite strange being able to openly discuss this, I am thankful I can speak to you all.

 

[outrider567]

I feel as if my death is inevitable, I truly cant fathom living by the time I turn 21, things aren't working out for me and I feel as if they never will, therefore I have decided that CTB is my best option. I have considered multiple methods, yet they all seem so frightening, I don't wish to spend my final moments in fear or panick. So I came to the conclusion that jumping infront of a train seemed easy enough, I doubt I'd be stopped, I live out by the countryside afterall. Would walking along the tracks, far away from the platform, then jump, resort in a remotely peaceful death? Or perhaps I'd lie down, I've thought about taking a painreliever which has been prescribed by a doctor, got you sleeping like a rock. I'm not fully sure if I want to CTB right this instant, there are things I have yet to be satisfied with, but when the time comes, I want to be reassured that I have a reliable path to go. I would appreciate someones opinion on this. It feels quite strange being able to openly discuss this, I am thankful I can speak to you all.

A man tried that in NYC after killing his wife, but only his legs were cut off by the train

 

[Pollenallergy]

A man tried that in NYC after killing his wife, but only his legs were cut off by the train

Ah only his legs, well that doesn't sound pleasant at all

 

[Koppite]

Very selfish way to do it. You traumatise the driver and goodness knows how many other innocent people who are simply trying to go about their day. Many train drivers with no prior depression, mental health issues or suicidal ideation have killed themselves because of jumpers.

Killing yourself is your right. Killing other people - or causing them extreme emotional and psychological damage - is not.



TL;DR: Don't do this.

 

[Secret]

I've thought about this, but I am too worried about failing at it and left permanently disfigured.
I also don't want to do that to the driver and whoever would end up cleaning up pieces of me on the line (if it was successful)

 

[moya117]

First of all, I'm sorry you have to deal with a lot of suffering that you even think about doing this.

Short answer: no, it's not effective
Long answer:
1. It really depends on what trains are you gonna jump into, how's the speed? If it's fast enough, I still don't think it's effective if you just jump, you'll probably get dragged first but then survive with a few losing limbs.
Much better way to do it is just lay your head on the tracks and just wait for the train, you'll be decapitated, faster death, but then again, it depends on the train
Is the front of the wheels have a cover? If yes then you can't be decapitated.
2. You will traumatized and give a lot of people PTSD, especially the train conductor.

I suggest looking at the post resources here and find something that might be fit for you.
May you find some peace <3

 

[StolenLife]

In my opinion, that is definitely not a peaceful way. You have to take into consideration a fact that people might be present and therefore a higher chance of being "saved". Also if you do it the wrong way you might end up disabled. To me it sounds really painful and uncomfortable, just imagine laying down on the tracks while the train gets closer, the sound gets louder, and the horn blows, and some people start screaming maybe... However if you still think that it's the method for you, I respect your decision.

 

[ShanaRei]

I thought about this method too. Where I live there is a high speed line that goes 90+ mphs and people have been killed already just trying to cross it. The tracks are about a mile from my house as well, so it would be an easy walk. I could avoid witnesses as well.

 

[deathbydragon]

After the police confiscation of my SN, this has turned from my backup method to primary method.
My country's rail service has a pretty helpful interactive map of every level crossing in the country, filterable by the speed of the trains passing and how many trains use it a day. I don't live too far from a rural 100+mph crossing. No chance I'm just jumping in front of a slow moving train at a busy station.

"It might traumatize the train driver" I don't care. They should've picked another job if it affects them that much. If I was a train driver, I'd think I'm glad I could help you relieve your suffering, not make it about myself. If they're so affected then they should campaign for people to have more painless solo methods available.

I'd do it by gun, I'd do it by SN, the last instant and painless method available to me is getting obliterated by a fast moving train, and I'm taking it. As a note, I won't be 'jumping', I'll be kneeling down in front of it head first so my skull should get destroyed in an instant.

I'm so angry at the situation the world has forced me into and this is a great way of showing it. Plus no open casket at my funeral, bonus

 

[outrider567]

Ah only his legs, well that doesn't sound pleasant at all

No, and of course the rest of his crippled life in prison also

 

[Pollenallergy]

Very selfish way to do it. You traumatise the driver and goodness knows how many other innocent people who are simply trying to go about their day. Many train drivers with no prior depression, mental health issues or suicidal ideation have killed themselves because of jumpers.

Killing yourself is your right. Killing other people - or causing them extreme emotional and psychological damage - is not.



TL;DR: Don't do this

Very selfish way to do it. You traumatise the driver and goodness knows how many other innocent people who are simply trying to go about their day. Many train drivers with no prior depression, mental health issues or suicidal ideation have killed themselves because of jumpers.

Killing yourself is your right. Killing other people - or causing them extreme emotional and psychological damage - is not.



TL;DR: Don't do this.

It seems rather selfish now that I think about it, I don't necessarily want to hurt or impact anyone else too much with my death.
I appreciate your insight, yet I am still unsure how else I could do it, this is the only method that doesn't seem to require too much planning and trouble for myself, but I might reconsider my options, thank you.

I've thought about this, but I am too worried about failing at it and left permanently disfigured.
I also don't want to do that to the driver and whoever would end up cleaning up pieces of me on the line (if it was successful)

Failing is a concern of mine as well, I greatly dislike the thought of having to face such a great consequence if something doesn't go according to plan. I guess it's more of a motivator for me to go properly through with it.
And yes of course considering the driver as well, no one else should have to suffer from my death.
Yet I struggle with figuring what else could work for me, still, thank you for your reply.

 

[Unattainable666]

Personally, I would shit my pants watching a train come out me - I'd probably die of a heart attack and not by the train!! Not sure this is really peaceful, but I know there are some people who prefer this method. Just not for me.

 

[Pollenallergy]

First of all, I'm sorry you have to deal with a lot of suffering that you even think about doing this.

Short answer: no, it's not effective
Long answer:
1. It really depends on what trains are you gonna jump into, how's the speed? If it's fast enough, I still don't think it's effective if you just jump, you'll probably get dragged first but then survive with a few losing limbs.
Much better way to do it is just lay your head on the tracks and just wait for the train, you'll be decapitated, faster death, but then again, it depends on the train
Is the front of the wheels have a cover? If yes then you can't be decapitated.
2. You will traumatized and give a lot of people PTSD, especially the train conductor.

I suggest looking at the post resources here and find something that might be fit for you.
May you find some peace <3

Thank you for your kind words, I greatly appreciate them as well as the rest of your reply.
There's are a multitude of different trains that drive on these tracks, some have covers, some don't. I've sorta just been hoping that the impact would be enough but it seems that's not the case. Laying my head down truly does seem like a superior method though, might be difficult without truly knowing which train I'll be met with. Impacting innocent people with my death isn't exactly too desirable either, yet I am still unsure how else I would want to do things, still, thank you.
I shall check the resources out, you are very kind and helpful <3

In my opinion, that is definitely not a peaceful way. You have to take into consideration a fact that people might be present and therefore a higher chance of being "saved". Also if you do it the wrong way you might end up disabled. To me it sounds really painful and uncomfortable, just imagine laying down on the tracks while the train gets closer, the sound gets louder, and the horn blows, and some people start screaming maybe... However if you still think that it's the method for you, I respect your decision.

I am glad to have your insight on it, thank you. Being "saved" is a truly undesirable outcome, I was hoping it'd be possible to perish upon impact, yet there's always a chance things don't work out as intended. Yet thank you for respecting my decision, in my eyes everything will be easier to go through with its something I myself don't have control over, I doubt there's any time to chicken out.

I thought about this method too. Where I live there is a high speed line that goes 90+ mphs and people have been killed already just trying to cross it. The tracks are about a mile from my house as well, so it would be an easy walk. I could avoid witnesses as well.

Everything sounds ideal I'd say, do what you think is best for you.

 

[SoftWorries]

It wouldn't be and it's really bad for the mental health of the people working on the train.

It's better not to get anyone else involved in your suicide lest you make them suicidal as well. I've been witness to violent deaths and that is directly the cause of my trauma and desire to ctb.

 

[Disaster]

I'm not sure how you define "peaceful", and have you ever contemplated this word for at least two seconds, if you wonder if getting hit by a large mass of metal etc. could be peaceful.

 

[Ambivalent1]

Having your limbs ripped to shit is not peaceful

 

[Koppite]

"It might traumatize the train driver" I don't care. They should've picked another job if it affects them that much. If I was a train driver, I'd think I'm glad I could help you relieve your suffering, not make it about myself. If they're so affected then they should campaign for people to have more painless solo methods available."

Wow. Talk about 'not making it about yourself'...
IMHO consciously doing something to (statistically) make a non-suicidal person want to kill themself is just as bad as the anti-suicide zealots stopping us from exercising our own bodily autonomy. Worse, even.
Dying with dignity should be the goal. That's our right. Dying in order to destroy other people's lives - to punish them for our suffering - is not our right.

 

[slanabhaile]

"It might traumatize the train driver" I don't care. They should've picked another job if it affects them that much. If I was a train driver, I'd think I'm glad I could help you relieve your suffering, not make it about myself. If they're so affected then they should campaign for people to have more painless solo methods available."

Wow. Talk about 'not making it about yourself'...
IMHO consciously doing something to (statistically) make a non-suicidal person want to kill themself is just as bad as the anti-suicide zealots stopping us from exercising our own bodily autonomy. Worse, even.
Dying with dignity should be the goal. That's our right. Dying in order to destroy other people's lives - to punish them for our suffering - is not our right.

I agree with this. My uncle was a train driver and said this situation was his biggest fear in life, so much so that it was among the reasons why he left to find another job.

 

[glitterypearls]

its not peaceful. it's painful and scary. I been looking videos about it and it seem to fail when the person SI kicks in and they move, your death won't be peaceful. your body parts would be everywhere. for SFW video u can look up if you have netflix watch the first EP of the new season of "unsolved mysteries" the girl CTB using a train. the description of how she looked in the aftermath is scary and disturbing.

I know people view it as selfish and I'm against it for that and for the fact if it fails then it's terrible, but we shouldn't judge people and call them selfish for it. people don't pick the train if they had other options.

so if you have other options pick something else. but you aren't selfish for this. I hate when people comment that the person is selfish. how is this different then someone jumping off a building where other people would witness it?

 

[00nobody00]

If I personally were to choose to go about this method, I would choose a freight train. I would not jump in front of it though. I would run up to the side of it and put my neck on the track face down and let the wheel take my head off. I have tracks a block and a half away from my house and the trains travel more than slow enough to time it good. Probably not as swift as a guillotine, but close enough.

 

[OceanBlue]

After the police confiscation of my SN, this has turned from my backup method to primary method.

"It might traumatize the train driver" I don't care. They should've picked another job if it affects them that much. If I was a train driver, I'd think I'm glad I could help you relieve your suffering, not make it about myself. If they're so affected then they should campaign for people to have more painless solo methods available.

I'm so angry at the situation the world has forced me into and this is a great way of showing it. Plus no open casket at my funeral, bonus

Pro-suffering warriors should feel guilty when this happens, not the desperate people who were forced to go through it. I agree with the sentiment, people close their eyes to this stuff instead of demanding the right to a peaceful assisted death for everyone, so they should take some blame when this eventually happens.

It's inhumane and no one should go through this, but I would never call the ctb person selfish in this situation.